wolf hoodratNYC coder DJWOLF LUNACYRADIO's blog: "July 18th"

=== 'A GOOD FRIEND  wrote

the following at '2011-09-14 10:01:33'

TODAY TO ME....................................... 

> GUESS I AM ON THE WRONG END OF THE SANDMANS LIST......MUST HAVE PISSED ON HIS PAPER OR SOMETHING...
> NOW YOU KNOW WHY I NEED CALMING........
> YOU GET THAT WAY TO???????
> FUCKING MIGRAINE THE DAY BEFORE... JUST COULDN'T KILL THAT PAIN....THEN YESTERDAY SUCH A NATURAL UP FORGOT TO EAT.....OR SLEEP......
> NOT TIRED YET..... BUT SHAKY.........
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> WHY THESE GUYS GET CRAZY WANNA MOVE WITH ME NOT EVEN MEET........ THAT'S JUST CRAZY SHIT YA KNOW........... WOMEN DO THAT TO YOU??? WHAT IS IT I DON'T GET THAT CRAP...... SCARES ME AWAY LIKE THAT L WORD......AM I WRONG HERE????? IT HURT HIM FOR ME TO SAY HELL NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! & THAT I WOULD LEAVE PERMANENTLY IF NOT STOP THAT SHIT.........TRUTH ALWAYS NO MATER WHO'S BLOOD IS DRAWN RIGHT?????????? IT DOES HURT US TO SOME TIMES....
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>        XOXOXOXOXOXOOX
>        FOR YOU MY RAIN
>        STAY SAFE BABY

No believe me- women are just as bad
they come on to me all the time, and some just say things that are definitely not right
THEN some are just normal and want to chat so I give them my yahoo and OMG!!!!!! they stalk me, and say the weirdest things- and just get very freaky
THIS IS WHY I hardly ever put up pictures and god forbid I put up any sexy pictures- I have a harmless one laying on my bed I took a picture- and just for fun I should put it up to get some extra points lool
BUT when I start to get comments from women that are just out of the ball park- I have to take my pictures down
if u notice I put up a picture and I take it down after a day cause I get harrassed!!!!!!!!!
I get girls out of the woodwork asking me why I disabled the FUMARRY and I tell them I just dont want it and they make me feel so fucking guilty

AND>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
just about every time I have to avoid or say no to these women
I FEEL GUILTY
and it just haunts me cause they make me feel like I shot their dog kind of guilt
many times I wanted to leave- but just ignore them and stay
it happens to guys too and you prob will write back and say it is because I am good looking, but when I look at your photos, I have said to myself that you're very pretty and very attractive- SOOOOO you are in the same boat
your pictures are warm and caring- u just see that you are a nice person and THAT ATTRACTS MORE PEOPLE THAN LOOKS!!!
just being NICE, women just stalk me and send I LOVE YOU notes and ask things from me like my cel number and shit and make me feel bad when I say NO
it seems just being a NICE person far outweighs the LOOKS dilemma
NICE attract more extreme people than anything else and I try to be nice to them but they are needy and energy vampires- and just suck the life out of me-
seems people suck your energy out of you and it gives you headaches, just like me cause u are a nice person

AND as a guy who was raised to protect and respect women, I can never just tell them to fuck off- I just put up with them and ignore them till they go away and that sometimes take sooo long
many say I love u and if I dont say it back they say- OH well u must hate me they reply
I so fucking hate needy women who KNOW I wont tell them to go fuck off
OR they accuse me of thinking they are ugly or "too good" for them
or whatever and I end up taking massive amounts of time feeding their ego's
damn I am gonna put this in a blog I think cause it drives people away sooo much
I dont have the heart to say fuck off or to block them
I just put up with it
but many women I know who are great friends have deleted their profiles because of this
BUT they end up coming back cause they like being here- meanwhile they lost all the achievements by quitting and rejoining
its just not fair to them at all

I have another profile and my profile picture is a picture from behind me that you can not even see my face, you just see my back AND I still get the same thing!!!!!

SO it happens to guys too
we get harassed not so much sexually but emotionally
and it is a real problem at times
and as a guy, the emotional harassment is horrible because I really dont want to be hurtful- so I am nice
BUT the women KNOW this and persist

and I fucking hate it cause I spend all this time feeding their egos
and I think they get a kick out of knowing I can't say no

they know they can manipulate me and enjoy doing so

 

so dont leave, just put up with it if you can
its fun being here and u will miss it
I draw all day and it is like company to me
when I draw I look up hundreds of times cause I draw with pencil and it causes my eyes to overwork so I look up to rest them soooo often
when I look up I see things on fubar that make me feel good
and keep me company
sometimes all I do in one day is draw morning to night
and I appreciate the company
so being here far outweighs the psychological bullshit

and finally, I have friends here that I will lose touch with if I delete my profile and leave fubar
they arent friends who would sit and talk on yahoo messenger-
they are my FU friends- I communicate in other ways like thru comments and fu-things
and especially thru art- thru leaving picture comments
and I feel a bond with them
and I will lose that if I leave and will miss them
I dont want to lose that
so I will stay- I worked hard to be at my level and worked very hard to be here
I wont give anyone the satisfaction of driving me away
I wont give up or give in
so relax, I will really miss u if you go
I will miss your messages, and your thoughts
and especially your company
and I know I wont be the only one
love
wolf
xoxox