Mz Vytal's blog: "Julie's Poetry Corner!!!"

In the stillness of the night when thoughts run wild I lay quietly and ponder life’s joy and sorrow Many times I wander aimlessly amidst my mind Searching for any inkling of my tomorrow Perusing my past in movie theatre form I view all those things which caused me pain I have seen my eyes weep mornfully many times And have wondered if I will ever see the rain Many comforts lie softly hidden behind those tears Yet, somehow I have seemed to make due Rising in the morning, accepting the sun willingly I realize at once that I see life with a different view Could it be that I was meant to suffer strife To teach me of all those things not mentioned, yet felt To remind me that life is a gift forever encompassing Those things which are both eloquent and svelt? I have experienced the best of both worlds I have suffered the pain of a discontent lover and more I have explicitly relished in the joys of being a parent I wonder what will be behind the next door Love, hate, happiness, anger, joy and pain Isn’t that the irony of life that keeps us surmising our path Each step, continuously pushing us forward into the unknown 180 degree turns, at different times, both ways, you do the math We are forever coming full circle in life!!

FIND ME Where rivers run warm and thoughts are blue Find me beyond a dream come true Where lovers don’t leap and clouds aren’t dry Find me lying across the sky In a world of thought that never sleeps Find me on the boundary of reality Can you find me lying still In a place beyond hope, peace and will Can you find me where the oceans are gray The fish won’t swim and hearts stray Can you find me here among the tall grass In a world where questions are not asked Above the nightmare that forever creeps Find me where eyes always weep Living a life that never grows Find me lying among the rose In time that seems to sweep the land Find me with an outstretched hand Can you find my love across time Where people stare and words don’t rhyme Can you find me and fight to bring me home From a world where one’s heart is owned Can you find me where hearts are made of steel Although I am trapped by chains so real Find me as if your very heart depends On the vibe my soul can send Find me now before I disappear Before you have no reason to cheer Find me longing for my thirst to end Hold me now so my soul can mend Above the realm of peace and harmony That’s where you will find me

In the darkness of night, I lie alone on my bed Many thoughts of you running through my head Remembering the smile on your loving face Cherishing forever our last embrace The strength of your arms, the way they felt When I am in your arms, I completely melt The way you smile as you look at me When your eyes are peering, so lovingly The silkiness of your adoring and wanting touch That thought alone makes me miss you so much The sweet flavor of your enchanting kiss Oh, the way that makes me feel is utterly bliss The way your lips graze lightly over my skin As the heat of the moment starts to sink in If you only knew what your love does to me If only there was a way to allow you to see Your love fills my heart in so many ways As it will for the rest of my living days It encompases the person that looks back at you With you by my side, I could never feel blue Your love raises my life to higher planes In words, there's just no way to explain The way I feel you each day by my side Let's me know that you and I are "right" Let me forever know the company of your soul So that my life can be completly whole Thoughts of you always make me smile And I know that your love is worthwhile Thinking of this I again begin to settle in And let the sweet slumber of night begin I hug my pillow tight when I sleep, and drift off to dream Wanting, needing you there so bad I could scream In the darkness of night, I lie alone on my bed Many thoughts of you running through my head.

Cold, black satin sheets canvas the bed, Rich, luxurious mahagony forms the frame, Mirrors, polished with care lie ahead, Taunting the lovers to begin a new game, Candles aglow with an amber hue, Solicit the mood of passion and sensuality, A musky aroma permeates and subdues, Toys of pleasure heighten the carnal mentality, A view of leather, satin, lace and much more, Encourage a lustful yet shameless greed, Novelties that most would seem to abhore, Awaken the lovers' most inward needs, The enchanting melody lingering in their ears, Beckons their libido into lascivious affection, Reviving emotions that were buried for years, Tantalizing their taste of the sweetest confections, To be continued.............

OK, a once in a lifetime event!!! WHOOOOOOO, talk about totally being stokked!!!! The members of Viva La Bam during their 60 day tour are on the Ball State Campus, partying @ The Warehouse!!! I was fortunate enough to be able to cut Jordan's hair......Jordan, you are an absolute DOLL!! These guys are just too damn cool! It was a pleasure to meet some of the members and later, I will hopefully get to party with them!!! LOOK OUT guys.....if I get to show up, we are gonna have a BALL!!! HEHEHEHEEEEE WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO, can't wait! (thinks heavily about kids getting to sleep quick like, lmaoooo) CHEERS to the members of Viva La Bam, a fine buncha guys they are!!!

In my heart, I know what is right My mind retreats to that one moonlit night A night where all seem right with the world And in that moment, I knew, I was your girl Those times I reminisce, everything seems surreal The elegant plans which had marvelous appeal Do I really know which direction is due Pondering the thought, emotion and view As the sun breaks into my thoughts wound taut I try to break free only to realize I can not Trapped inside a world full of gloom Only to realize what I wanted is doomed A love that would last throughout infinity Someone to cherish with all my dignity One who could treasure all that I am and more I feel is left peering behind a closed door What would it take to have it come crashing down To reveal the many enchanting pleasures abound To give clairvoyance of what is to augment A love that will never grow bored, tired or spent In all it's essence, still it grows increasingly parched Waiting for the nectar it needs to impart How can something so grand become so obscure How can something so cherished be tainted or unpure The higher powers in their knowledgeful woes Perhaps made a mistake and are trying to show How two people who seemed the perfect match Can mesmerize so perfectly without even a scratch But how can this be, it was supposed to last Not venture headlong into the cosmos so vast When wondering just what they wanted to reveal Remember the elegant, grandure appeal A love that crossed over miles away Vibes that shall be felt even to this day

Sun shining caressing my skin making me feel happy within, Rays fallin touching my soul making me feel completly whole, Clouds scattered barely in sight making the world seem just right, Golden color cascading down making a reason not to frown, Temperature rising sweat glazing my flesh making my body seem refreshed, Beautiful day no rain in sight making my day happy and bright!

Dreams of you bombard my brain, As I slumber beneath the pelting rain, Memories of your distance make me cry, As I dream beneath the cold, black sky. Thoughts of our love settle in once more, As I realize what life has in store, A smile lingers upon my lips today, Because I know your love is here to stay.

One Must First Lose The loneliness of silence Envelopes me again I try to relax As my heart settles in I wonder what happened To my wonderful friend Who always stayed with me Until the night was to end It seems the house shook As he walked across the floor I couldn’t quite catch him As he walked through the door A discussion turned ugly As we said things we regret At one moments such notice My heart began to fret Some things can go sour Without knowing just why And I pleaded to the heavens As I looked to the sky This man I still love him Without a moment of shame And he is still angry With my being to blame When will I learn to keep quiet When will enough be enough Sometimes I just don't get it And the lesson seems rough One moment of anger One moment of fear And I remember my life Before I shed a tear This man who so loved me Mad me happy with glee Will forever be gone from my life So why can't I see That sometimes to win One must first lose To stop opening the mouth in anger For the life you so choose?

An Unconscious Gift In such a short time you have shown me people still care, That I can still love, hope, survive and even dream, And that after all this time in my life I was so un-aware, Of how things in a person's life can be so serene, It matters not where I have been only where I may go, And many people have come to see that things are of the past, That I should always try my best and let the love inside show, And that the answers never come to me unless I should ask, That when my life seems so dramatic and turned around, Someone will always be there to lend a helping hand, That being open and honest helps me grow leaps and bounds, And someone will always be there in time to help me understand, That when my time is said and done I know that I can rest, By knowing that I have always said what was righteous and true, That I should always give my heart and soul and do my best, To let the real me inside come brightly shining through. That not everyone among us is spiteful or down-right mean, And some people would give up their world just to Love you, That not everyone says things that hurt or make you feel unclean, And that some would do anything to keep you from feeling blue.