when loving him
so much that is hurts
when i am trying to run and hide
just to escape the hurt inside
with a depth of fear
it may not always be near
but that is something
that i may not endure
and is something that
no drug can cure
i look in the mirror
and see that changes have taken place
i have forced
can it all just be untrue
then every time
i try to escape my mind
it only ends up back on you
i tell my self to not love you
but i know it now
i can not do
because i end up just needing you
