JoKeR's blog: "Jokerz Vengence Cycle"

Black Smiling Lips Dead, Whit Skin Black Diamonds Around the Eyes There's Darkness Inside It's head Jingles With Rage A Smile That does So Decieve It Laughs In the Night He Brings Terror to Others Lives Amusement that Leads to Death A Power to Make You Forget All Misery That Likes Company He's Coming For You Watch Out for the Joker There's No Escaping His Rage!!!!

The Darkness Within - There's a darkness within to which only some can see, A look in my eye's opens a gate to who I really am. Hiding what's inside has become all too easy, I'm seen as naturally a good person, But there is where they go wrong. The darkness feeds off of everything I hold inside, With the state i am in now, I can't let my feelings out. I'm an atrophy in myself which can never be cured, The darkness seeps in my veins, Making me what I am destined to be. Those that can see through me know how dangerous I am, I feel sympathy for them for they now know my madness. The secret that's held can make them go insane, Telling of it brings a fate that I cannot even say. The majority that can't see can go on with their lives, Living the life so many work to accomplish. What i know will nevercome to surface, Gradually I change so that no one will ever notice. Like a frog in a pot of water, It doesn't notice it getting it hot, It doesn't notice the change of the heat rising, Before the frog knows it the water is boiling hot, And it's life has been consumed. The darkness is an aversion, Trying to take what is good, When what is inside is gone, There's nothin left to feed. The Darkness then lays dormant, Until light awakens it once more. My Rage is it's weakness, And thus can't consume all that's good. Darkness fuels my soul, Keeping me alive.

My Dreams Dreams are what keep a man sane, They are the one of the only things that can't be taken away. When I sleep I am free, I enter a world that sometimes i wish I cannot leave. Dreams bring me peace and make me exstatic, They keep me in reality and true to myself. Some are good, but some can be horrific, But they are mine and no one elses. They can't be invaded and are of no one elses concern, Dreams are keys to gates unknown. They can take you anywhere you wnat to be, I'm completely in control of what goes on. They can make you the person you longed to be.

To Fear is dead so I must not, It beaks a man down and creates a knot. It kills the soul and makes a man hide, Everywhere i go, fear will ride behind. It will follow me until the day i die, When the day comes my life will fly. Maybe someday I can break it down, Then it will leave and I will wear the crown. To conquer ones fear is a big challenge in life, To overcome it and stab it with a knife. It will gang up against me with all it's got, But i must stay stron and unravel it's plot. The ice I am walking on is running thin, The further I go fear is trying to get in. Someday I will look fear in the eye, I'll look so hard it will want to die. My fear has created so many things in my mind, My Rage it brought out and my Rage it did find. It created a weapon that will bring it's end, It's the only way I consider Anger as my friend. I leave now with a message to fear, Beware my Rage - Have i amde myself clear?!

Loneliness Precious as life, hazardous is Love. I loved again, and the bomb dropped again. Too good to be true, she deserves more. What I gave wasn’t enough, and happy she was not. Fighting was all we did, little but too much. Innocence was taken, trust was never given. To love without trust, is to live without love. Blind to the truth, I am cursed to live life alone. Apologies can be said many ways, but it’s not enough to fix my faults. Take me back, take away this pain. I can be better, no fighting and more attention to give. Similarities we share, we are too much alike. The memories will remain, tearing through me like a knife. To Touch and to feel, to comfort and to hold. I fucked up again, the tears run again. I love her so much, only she can take away this pain. If there can’t be love, there’s no point to live. I hope the next person gives her more, she deserved more than me. hello and good bye, Soon I will burn, then I will fade away. Hello loneliness, I am back again.

What Do I Do? Pondering on the past which haunts me every day Old habits died off and I gained anew A friend I turned away from is callin me near My mind is full it's hard to hear My forgotten friend is drawing closer What do I do? This friend was close we got along well There was peace and my mind was at ease Not a care in the world we owned it true Something gave way and all was lost I opened my eyes and my friend was gone What is there to do? This friend I speak of is not like any other Always there for me, never turned away from me I can hear the calling in the distance but to go there I would have to leave this new life So confusing, what do I do? The time has come, but I need more I like it here now, I am almost complete But I feel my friend drawing even closer My Friend who is my loneliness What do I do? To go back means to be completely alone With no one but me and my friend No social life once again no people to help What Do I do?

Addicted to My Disease Darkness is my home, but my life is just not whole, Something's missing, it's all a lie, watchthis place collide. Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll bethere, Vengence will be mine,I've got to take mylife back, The time has come for me to rise above myself, Create and destroy, build it up and break itdown, It's my time to dream, I'll close my eyes andleave myself behind, Watch myself slip away intonothingness, Meditation in my mind, Innerselfsuicide to take away the pain, I've lost all my feeling forthe time, I'm not affraid to fade away, For thismoment I am happy, I'm losing my soul and losing mymind, Wake the fuck up, Some things will neverchange, I'm a fiend for my rage, I'm addicted to myown disease, I plagued me, now I'm plagued forlife, I'll have to go on living this way, I wantthis all to end, But maybe I am bound by fate, Too much time has elapsed, The virus inside keeps me inrelapse, Adrenaline from my anger, It tastes sodevine, It tastes so good, It send shivers up my spine, Forever and ever I'll be addicted to mydisease.

Hiding the Anger My Anger and Rage, It hides inside So many triggers and still itwill hide People try to find the red button todestruction, They try so hard and every button's adeduction The longer i hold it, the less it takes toburst, I'll stay strong as I can as a rule in thefirst. My Mind is a strong one, no doubt aboutthat, But the Anger continues to nibble like a hungry little rat There's tools I use to keep it at ease Tools that work wonders and make the Rage freeze A form ofmeditation that others find weird, As long as they work, fora time the rage will disappea Some day I'll find a cure tokill off my rage, Then life will go on with the turn of apage But maybe the anger gives me strength using little bits helps me go a far length, Sports are an outlet,it frees the anger It creates adrenaline and i fear no danger So many years, I've been able to control, So as long as I'm alive, in my mind it will sit.

Fear Not Death I welcome death and fear it not, when it comes I will take it by the hand. Call me crazy, but I am not, life is good and I will live it to the end. But i will not worry when the time is near, I will look death in the eye and call it's bluff. With eyes that pierce the darknest night, it will bleed light brighter than the sun. Death is not the end of life however, it's the beginning of a journey untold. Life is but a walk in the park, to travel through it is only a short road. For the soul there is no dead end, when the body dies the soul lives forever. The body is but a shell, a cocoon for something more. When we are in womb we are caterpillars, when born we enter the cocoon stage. As we grow older the cocoon begins to break, when we die the butterfly then takes flight. We are like butterflies ready to come out, once broken free we are welcome where we want to roam. Therefore the greatest journey in life is death, I will welcome it with open arms. Do not fear something that need not be feared, we are only in wait for something greater. Don't go early for that is wrong, wait it out, great things are worth waiting for. Life is full of happiness, but it's just not whole til death do we part.

Through The Eye's of a Xulidimmu My eye's are windows to the darkness and my soul, You venture into the blackness and fall into a pit of despair, Locked unto my gaze, now you wanna get away, Your soul gets pulled in, demons of the darkness gather from all around, Losing your sanity, energy draining from within, Corrupted by CHAOS, you've become a slave locked in chains, No way to get out, you are separating from the flesh, Once bathed in blood, you are becoming lost to the world, Lost to the World, Lost to the Flesh, Lost to yourself, Lost is your soul. You beg for my mercy, your pleading goes unheard, You tresspassed unto my domain, now you are darkness consumed, No sympathy, no warning, no emotion, no mercy for you, The fates have wrote it down, Destiny turned her back upon you, Live out what is left in this life, in the next you will be enslaved, Your soul cursed for eternity, begone from my site now, See you in the next life, when DEATH has come to get you.