Icarus's blog: "Hurts to watch."

You read that and thought I was an asshole didn't you?

Well gee
how do you think I feel?

I'm keeping this short, because I want you to know only a few keypoints and its bedtime

1. I do not wish to subscribe to "Jesus Magic" weekly.
2. Been there done that. Jesus is just alright with me.
3. Don't talk about religion, abortion, the death penalty, or political parties at work.
4. Don't talk about fight club.

I'm openly noncommitted nonorganized religion philosopher/buddhist with heavy deist leanings.

I am not agnostic. I am not atheist.
I am not a godless heathen.
A heretic
maybe.

I've explained this before.
To anyone that asks.

When you ask me to go to
bible study, when you know my belief system,

with hope and wonder in your eyes and smile
like you honestly think you're going to
save me
convert me
convince me
show me something I haven't already been bored with

expect me to laugh.

In fact when this exact situation came up today.
I did just that.
Honestly, who doesn't know not to talk about religion at work?
And secondly, did you watch the episode of family guy where Peter started the church of the Fonz?

"Hey Lois how would you like to have a mouth with no teeth?- I'm sorry that was out of line, but that's what happens when you question people's faith."

I studied this girl's god longer than she has been alive. I've lost some of my best friends over religious intollerence... they weren't killed
they were just dicks and stopped talking to me when I started
-studying- not even observing
nonchristian beliefs.

Trust issues.

I've studied most world religions, I've formulated my own hypotheses and theories based on world wide phenomenon, studied human behaviour both atypical and herder, an understanding of the behaviour of matter and cycles, and life and the universe.
I have come to the best understanding and respect for my self, my (possible) creator and the grander schemes of things.

I have all of my questions.
I don't have all my answers.
I never will.
I'm fine with that.
Anything I can't verify for myself, I simply accept with a smile as a possibility
I will continue to live, and try to do good.

>>
in a word its buddhism

in a life history of things I've spent more time thinking about existence and gods and design and creativity longer than most. And in that study I have made firm, rational decisions and minimized assumptions when even applying the Holmes method- after elminating all rational explanations, when the only explanation is the absurd, it is the best.

I already know what you're going to say, and I'm not interested in the refresher course.
In fact
I'm offended by the naive notion that I would need or want it.

But I will smile. I will pat you on your adorable forehead, and send you on your way saying "I'll think about it".

But she had to ask "really"
and I smiled
sweet, serene and honest
and said
"No."

I didn't lay all that "leave me and my beliefs alone" on her >>
but you kids have no excuse, you're not crippled, or a sheltered teenager.
She really does not know any better :/
ah
to be 19 again. (except in my case, we're probably talking 11)

Also
I have Mobile Suit Gundam Dynasty Warriors 2.
It is a BEAST of a time killer- lots of replay and grind, not just leveling, parts, and storylines.

You get factions to join or destroy, friendship/relationship levels to maintain and adjust, new licenses for mobile suits, BUILD mobile suits (seriously, ever suit in the game (over 50) is playable with every pilot) new pilots to unlock

... getting 100% completion on one character, let alone ALL of them, is going to take some time.
And its fun :D

Achievements, challenge levels.
It is Hugester than the first.

Also, I finally picked up Bioshock for PS3 (20$ god bless greatest hits and price reduction for old PS3 games FINALLY), I will at some point finish that game >> Bioshock 2 can suck my ass. It's addon sideplot content at best, not a standalone sequel.

And...
then there is...

Borderlands.

Hoooooooooooo boy
this game is good. Looks like its about as long (and the environments are about twice as hugester) as Hellgate. Game play is more frantic and involving, AI is leaps and bounds better. Graphics, effects, processing of resources
way the hell better

...
this is the best FPS/RPG hybrid I've ever played.
And it has vehicle combat. *thumbs up*
Am I going to say "this is as far as we can take it"? fuck no, I'd say this is the best example of where to start.
It is a great game though- and its even more fun with a partner.
I snipe- he blows shit up.
The future is giant and glorius.

Also, this means I do NOT need you people right now.
Kill yourselves in shame and sorrow.

>> fuck it most of you already quit anyway.

My point is, barring more sex... y'know... any more than zero, and my thumbs falling off
I'm pretty set and happy with my gamez! pewpew.

And my Gouf and Sinanju came in.
More yey. Pictures upon completion.

So

don't try to "convert" me.
I probably already read the bible more than you did >>
I might call god a different name (Tim usually) but I probably talk to him more than you do, even if I later admit that I'm probably just talking to myself.

These games rock.

Don't freebase coke.

These games rock.

I have a duck in my freezer (teaser)

I'll be back when I get bit by a muse or have something to say and not dedicating 90% of my freetime to these new games.