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If you are a friend of mine, you would do well to read this....
I usually avoid this topic like the plague, since no matter who I wanted to explain it to, I doubted that they would "get it". But since someone had enough balls to ask me about it and I am tired of dodging the issue, here is my first and only explanation.
The topic is "Who is Wolf and why does he exist?" Ok here it goes....
A long time ago, I was weak. I was always smaller than people my age and got bullied. I was angry with life in general. One day, as I was being picked on and pushed around, I reached my boiling point. Something in my mind fractured and someone else was controlling me. And as I sat on top of this kid’s chest pounding his face into mush with my fists, all I can remember is someone was laughing. Later, with fear in their eyes, my friends told me that I was the one laughing.
No one understood, they all thought I was just "going through a phase." They were only half-right, John was the phase.
Wolf is quite simply, the other side of me. The Mr. Hyde to my Dr. Jekyll. My own personal Tyler Durden. The best definition of my situation is this: John is Clark Kent. Like Clark Kent; John is clumsy, he smiled and waves when you cut him off in traffic, and he is good-natured and forgiving.... Wolf is Superman; he is fearless, if you cut him off in traffic, you had better not stop. Wolf never forgives and has an temper that borders on homicidal.
But most importantly, John is a disguise. A mask that I wear when I have to go out in public.
Superman uses the persona of Clark Kent to "blend in" with everyone else. He did not become Superman, he was born Superman. He became Clark Kent to hide who he really was to the world. You see, I am not John. I never was. John is simply the name my disguise uses. I am, and always have been, Wolf.
So, keep smiling and saying "how civilized and nice" I have become. John will smile back and be gracious. Just realize, underneath the mask, I am baring my fangs.
This is the first and only explanation I ever intend to give concerning myself. I hope this provides all of you with some insight into me.
- Wolf
