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I've been on Fubar for over 4 yrs & also on Facebook for over 1 year. Over the years I've noticed people's status change from "single" to "in a relationship" & back to "single" so many times. I love my friends dearly & hate seeing them go thru the pain of breakups. It just really makes you take a step back & think to yourself" Do I really want to be in a relationship now??" Everyone should be happy but does taht mean you should also go thru s much pain & heartache just to be happy?? Just a thought & something to ponder.
Tonight was not a good night. Someone who I really cared about told me they stopped the "fuengageent" so she could get "fumarried" & 'fundivorced". Told her that hurt cause seeing on here I am fuengaged to someone made me feel on top of the world. Told her how hurt I was & gave her a hypothetical situation not knowing something like that actually happened to her. No matter what I said she didn't believe me. Now she has me blocked & now feel even worse than Idid earlier. Don't know what to do. Life really is a bitch!!
As you probably know by if you've read my previous blogs or mumms, I was in a bad relationship. Been over 2 yrs. I'm ready to move on & what happened in the past is past. Looking ahead to what the future holds. Just because 1 person ruined my faith in females does not mean all females will be like her. GOD I sure hope not!! LOL
I've been off & on here. Can't say if I am looking for Miss Right on here or not. I guess I am just waiting for her to fall out of the sky & say "Here I am. The woman you've been looking for all your life" If I think that is gonna happen I might as well keep dreaming. I guess I'm looking for someone to just pop up & tell me I've been looking for someone like me.
Really looking forward to my class reunion next weekend. I'll probably be the only one there without a date but it wouldn't be the 1st time I went alone. Too late tho to find someone to go with me. Only God & time will tell me what will happen in the future. Until then, life goes on & so does my search. Not sure what I'm looking for but I do want someone that is honest, loves to be around people. She MUST have a sense of humor to be with me. Looks are not important but personality is very important!!
The future begins NOW!!!!!
It's been over 2 yrs since my last relationship. When I met her, I was on cloud 9! after a few months the relationship ended & in a bad way. Ifelt like I could never trust her. Sucks when you can't trust someone you are in love with. Now I am beginning to wonder if I will ever find love again. I've tried but something always came up when it was time to meet someone.
Next week is my class reunion. I'm really looking forward to going but then I feel sad because I know I will be the only one there without a date. I'm sure I will have a good time but really wish I had someone to go with. Who knows. Maybe I might find someone who is single there. Time will tell.
This has been one of my worst weeks of my life. Hadn't been feeling well only to find out I have pneumonia. Ribs hurt like hell from all the coughing.
Got an e-mail from someone I used to work with until he moved away. Really thought he was a good friend of mine. Always looked out for me since I am disabled. Made sure I never got hurt if we did anything. After he moved, the only time I hear from him is if I e-mail him 1st. After not hearing from him for several months I sent him an e-mail to see how he was doing & he told me he got engaged & was planning a wedding in Vegas. Everytime I would e-mail he would say that he had been in town but never got a message for us to get together. He wrote back this week telling me he had been in town for his bachelor party. Of course, I had no idea anything was happening. We had same friends but no one ever thought about inviting me. That really hurts.
This morning I woke up to find my best friend who had gptten married about 10 yrs ago & few years later got divorced. I read in the paper that he had died. Haven't had a chance to call his family with condolences because I am in such shock. At this point in my life I'm not even sure if I want to know how he died. We were like brothers. Did everything & went everywhere with each other. Like me, he was paralyzed. His wife left him for another man.
Life is so unfair I just hope & pray to God he didn't do something stupid by killing himself but sometimes you just wish life was just a dream. It just isn't fair!!!!!
This has been a long hard week for me. First I find out I have pneumonia. Back is in lots of pain form coughing so much. Next thing I find out is our homecoming queen from high school hanged herself over the past weekend & now this morning I found out my very best friend died. He had moved out of state but we kept in touch but lost touch over past year. This has really gotten me into a real depression. Like the saying goes when it rains, it pours. Never in my wildest dreams would I see my friend die so young. He was on 44. Not sure what to do. I want to call his parents but not sure if that is a good idea right now. My head is just spinning from all this action over past week :(
Well, Here I am. Back again. I had to take a break from fubar & take a step back & look at the real me. Had some family problems I had to take care of. Family has & always will come first in my life. I'm glad to be here & hope my friends will show me love & hope they have missed me cuz I have missed them.
Some of you probably saw the new the other night about the guy who shot 4 innocent women at the gym. That happened not far from me. How scary it is knowing your neighbor could be a nutcase & go postal at any time. Altho what he did was TOTALLY wrong, I know ho the guy felt not having someone to love. Maybe some of us are meant to be alone all our lives. I can live with it altho I'd much rather have a special someone to love. That would make me the happiest man in the world!!
Some people can be so shallow in life. If you are not a perfect "10' then you don't exist. Wish some people would at least look into what is in a person's heart & soul. You'd be surprised what is really in there. Never jusge a book by it's cover. I'm sure everyone has heard that before. Yes, I am guilty of it too but lately I've taken a step back & realize I really need to look into someone's soul before I give judgement. I hope you do too!
