its strange lying on this bed .. being in my exs house .. wish i didnt to be here .. but nia needed to see me again . i feel bad leaving to go see and my family .. but i can't take her out of school .. if youve ever felt youd know how i feel i . so many emotions it doesn't seem real ..leaving is going to be so hard .. but i have to seem its been so long .. i wish someone could tell me it wasnt so wrong .. i need her with but .. i can't even take her ... coming back is going to hurt so bad .. so these are some of the reasons why im sad .. sometimes it feels better to express them then keep them in ..