I have to actually write somewhat of a blog just to try and defend myself against people- I have been through more bullshit them people have gone through in their life time- which I believe makes me stronger in the end. Adoption, abortion due to a difficult pregnancy, depression, giving birth to a 1 lb baby girl and watch her struggle to survive, divorce, relationships I tried to make work then gave up, Autism spectrum disorder,( my son diagnosed @2) and I had to go through most of this alone- I DONT HAVE TIME TO PLAY GAMES! There is so much more but I really dont feel I need to feel sorry for myself and post blogs on it to strangers that have nothing else better to do but read others blogs- there are 2 sides to every story, so you decide in the end what you believe. I am strong, I have been through a lot and I will get by once again in life the same way I always do, but just because a relationship does not work out in the end due to so many differences and not seeing eye to eye, no trust- that doesnt give you the right to bad mouth me and post things about me to others- I dont air out all your dirty laundary- you make it sound like its all me. If fact you made me believe that my depression was the problem when really- it wasnt that at all-it was just something to try and blame. Someday you will see my view- you have every right to be angry but so do I, and the way things look are different then what they really seem - you dont even bother to ask questions so - but I guess it doesnt matter- we are done- (we have been ,longer then we both thought)- you gave me the door to go through with an ultimatium and I took it and now you want me back- well im sorry but I have to work on my HEAD (sarcasm), I guess first before ever doing anything like that again. Im not perfect by any means and I have my faults, doubts, fears and believe it or not im human too and have feelings as well. Which is prolly why I had to stoop to this level and write a blog because I have had enough of my friends telling me you are at it again with writing about my my faults. Its ridiculous but what ever you need to do to get it all out. This bitch has backed off.
