since finding cherry tap I have been nonstop online playin around on it. its fun and I have enjoyed meeting all the interesting people on here. I am a christian... who is struggling with the old bad girl in me... silly I know... its not as bad as it sounds. I just mean that in my belief there is no premarital sex. the thing is this is very hard. I am a 35 year old who has been in full blown menapause for 7 years now because of cancer. and in this time in a womans world it goes two ways.. either you don't want it at all or all the time... I would be a all the time kinda girl. ALL the time! and I am blessed to have a wonderful and sexy boyfriend who likes that about me, and how wild I am, adventurous, experimental...naughty.
but someone from church knows that I have been spending weekends at his house... yep called across the carpet.. they were pissed. mike says how could something that feels so good be a bad thing? that is not a time to quote scripture, so I pray later but ugh! I am a passionate woman, I hate feeling guilty, and I am not ready as most people think around me quite yet to get married..
so what does a former bad girl do? I try but the man can melt the socks right off me with one smoldering look, and his kiss? well my friends when they say its in his kiss.. they arn't kidding. I made a huge lausana dinner for the family and mike and his brother. we had a nice time and signed cards going to various family and such, I showed thomas his brothers gifts and we ate! before they left mike came in the kitchen and leaned down to nuzzle my neck, kissing up to my lips and as his arms wrapped around me the kiss deepened, my mind swirled around me, my knees got weak, I hardly noticed as the pepsi slipped out of my hands crashing down as I reached up to weave my hand in his hair dragging him closer and deepening the kiss as I started to tremble with desire...after a few min and several whistles and catcalls from the other room we broke apart flushed and panting.. and realized we forgot that we were near the door leading from the kitchen to the living room where the family was all sitting, from his to my mom... sigh... ya. luckily everyone teased us and all was good but .. when he can kiss like that how can I be good>? sigh.
