Well another day has pasted and all that is new is that the weather has changed for about 3 hours. It is raining out but will turn into snow i am sure by night fall. Oh I am so glad. NOT!! i am sick of winter and being in western canada we have winter from the second week of October until the last week of May.about 7 and a half months, thats long enough isnt it? I think it is way long enough. You know the saying " careful for what you wish for, for it may come true" that saying makes so much more sense to me now that I have done so wishing. Some of the wishes have come true, yet they came with some sort of karma pay back for making such a wish. I use to wish for freedom from my Ex-Husband, and gained this freedom by losing everything that i had with him. Lost my home , my daughter , my cats ( four of them , Cucumber , Dip, Grasshopper and Scraffy)my possessions, everything for this so called freedom i wished for. So I look back and wonder if it was as bad as i once thought it was, could i have worked a little harder at maintaining that relationship, could i have been a better wife to him, so he could have been a better husband to me ? I dont blame him for the break down of this relationship I had a lot to do with it and one day i might share why it was not to continue or I might not. I am now in a different relationship from the one I had for 18 years total oppisite( no spell check :-( ). Something I have trouble adjusting to at times. Where my Ex wasnt very ..hmm.. affectionate, this man is, where my Ex would never wash a spoon to save his life , this one does, where my Ex would work steady, this one doesnt. So many differences, is this something ihave to go through in order to learn what i was like to my Ex? Is this my karma payback? I am sure it is normal this adjustment period, I just have little patientence for laziness. Oh well what can you do but make your bed you choose to lie in and sleep in it or not sleep in it. Decisions i must look into i think. There is more to my story but i will write more on this maybe tomorrow.
