I just found out about an hour ago that all that's happened to my wife was my fault. Months ago, she had told me to call the wound care center to make an appointment for a follow up check up but I had brushed it of time and again. I don't know why I didn't do it but now its too late, the damage has already been done and they have to open her up again and clean out the infection. I am feeling very remorseful as I write this as i realised that there is a possibility that she might not make it. The last time we did this, there were so many complications, she died twice and was revived and there were so many infections that kept ailing her and oh god, what have I done? I have put the woman I love and cared for back into the painful nightmare that she barely escaped from. I may have just cost her her life and I don't know what I'll do if she doesn't make it. She was doing so good, she was starting to walk again and getting her strength back with all the physical therapy that she was receiving and now, I have robbed her of all that, all because I was so self centered and self absorbed in doing my own things. I feel so guilty I could end my life but then again, that would be a selfish thing to do. All I can do now is pray for a miracle, that somehow she'll need minimal surgery or treatment and that she'll have minimal or no complications at all. I ask all of you who are my friends to please pray for us. For all of you that has taken the time to read this, God Bless You, my true friends.
