heartsJust Simply Mehearts's blog: "It's Just Me Rambling On"

Well I took a very short cat nap, maybe about 30 mins. Just enough time for me to dream. Well, it started with me singing praise & worship at my grandpa's church. He asked me to sing "Surely the Presence". So I started singing. When I got to the part where it goes "I can feel the brush of angel's wings. I see glory on each face." I looked out into the congregation & I saw my mom on the left side in the 1st pew, right by the aisle. My aunt Thea & my grandmother was sitting on the right side in the 1st pew. They couldn't see her, only I could. My mom was wearing army green dress pants with a beige colored shirt with a Victorian designed that matched perfectly, something that I'm sure I've seen her wear before cause it looked all too familiar. Her hair was long & brown, no bangs, pulled back & pushed a lil up with a clip, just like she always used to fix it. I can still smell the perfume she had on in my dream. When I saw her I started crying. I could not stop. I woke up crying. Now I'm just wondering what this all means. The weird thing is, I was not thinking of her before I fell asleep or at all today. Normally when I think of her, then I dream of her. Can anyone help me out with this? God I miss her & I so wish I could understand why He had to take her.

Instructions...... Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 5 people to be tagged, listing their names . Don't forget to leave a comment that says, "You're it!" on their profile and ask them to read your blog. You can't tag the person who tagged you. 1. I am hopelessly addicted to myspace. I wake up & head for the computer before I even go to the bathroom. 2. I hate having a dirty house, but I hate to clean. Can't win. 3. I love having a movie night with Ben, even though I know he's gonna fall asleep 10 mins into the movie. 4. I may seem like a strong person, but inside is this lil girl who just wants to be held & wants everything to be perfect & have the perfect fairytale life. 5. I am slowly becoming tired of being a stay at home mom, some days it seems like i will never get away & get a break. 6. I really want to travel & go places around the country & the world, but for some reason I don't ever see that happening. 7. I want to move out of Louisiana. Go anywhere. I don't care, just get the hell out. 8. Sometimes I look in the mirror and think that I am really pretty and then the very next day I'll look and hate what I see. 9. I never have enough time in a day to do and be all that I wanted to do and be. 10. I want to get a tattoo in memory of my mom. 1 pink rose, with 3 petals falling down, one for me, one for Koby & one for Brady, but i'm so deathly afraid of needles i doubt i'll ever get it done. I tag anyone who reads this!!!!

From: Me To: My precious mom It has been a year and a half since you've been gone, since you've left your me behind. How can I forget that day? How can I forget May 10th? How can I forget 10:35 P.M.? Couldn't you stay a little bit longer? I know you've had enough with your sufferings, I know that if it is was in your hands, you wouldn't wanna let go, you wouldn't wanna leave us … Mom, you know what? The day that you flew to the sky while your beautiful body was still laid on your bed waiting to be buried, I could feel you were around cuz there was a strange wind with a fresh breeze entered the room as if I was hearing birds chirp and angelic sounds…you know that you looked very clean and had a pure skin, there was no stain left on your body, it all was clear and soft. Mom, you might not remember the last moments of your life on earth, cuz you were in a semi-coma but I do.! I remember the last kiss from you. I remember feeling you leave us when I was holding your hand. I actually felt you go! I remember it all. Mom, I miss your presence. I miss your laugh, your soft warm hands. Those hands were always warm. Mom, Oh when ever I wanna see your beautiful face I hurry to the Albums! You are so attractive!! Mom, I didn't enjoy my adolescence time being with you and learning from you! Mom, I asked you many times to visit me in my dreams, why are you not? Are you mad at me or not proud of who I am? OK my angel I hope to hear from you soon, please think of replying back. I want you to know that I never and will never love any person as much as I love you. Your love is so special and is engraved in my heart, it so hard and impossible to be taken away from me. I want to see you no matter what was the cost; I am not a necrophobic person, knowing that death is the only ticket to travel to where you are and see you. Last but not least, thanks for looking at me and holding my hand while you were leaving the world. I adore you MOM.