Its been a year......and still the pain and tears have not gone away.....it seems like just yesterday i was taking my first steps with you there behind me watching me in awe as i walked across the living room.....seems like just yesterday you were watching me graduate high school....the look of undeniable pride on your face as i recieved my diploma......and it seems like just yesterday i was holding your hand as you passed away before my eyes. It hasnt been easy not having you here, i miss your laugh, your inappropriate jokes, your wisdom and advice, the sound of your voice, even the way you'd snore. 50 years old was really too soon for your life tree to be felled and we all still feel the pain of your loss....ive since then left florida and have moved a bit further north...hopefully one day i can get back to Jersey and the rest of the family........its hard knowing each day i wake up, every birthday that passes, every holiday that comes and goes you wont be here. I miss you dad i miss you so much and sometimes i feel so lost without you, but im a an adult now and you always taught me to be strong....but sometimes its so hard to be strong.......but i some how make it thru....
I love you dad and hope to see you again someday...
Love, your 1st born son, Jared
Below are the song lyrics for the song we played in his memory at his memorium service.
Wish you were here by Pink floyd
So, so you think you can tell Heaven from Hell,
blue skies from pain.
Can you tell a green field from a cold steel rail?
A smile from a veil?
Do you think you can tell?
And did they get you to trade your heroes for ghosts?
Hot ashes for trees?
Hot air for a cool breeze?
Cold comfort for change?
And did you exchange a walk on part in the war for a lead role in a cage?
How I wish, how I wish you were here.
We're just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl, year after year,
Running over the same old ground.
What have you found? The same old fears.
Wish you were here.
