If you really know me, you know I'm not a drama queen, so don't even go there.
So much in my personal and C.T. life has gone to pot in the last week it's not even funny.
I just made probably the biggest mistake but was a decision I felt was necessary. I don't have the time to commit and that's not fair to either of us.
The next major decision I have to make isn't going to be much easier.
I am so afraid of letting others down, but it's gotten to the point that it's just too much b/s for me to handle.
I'm on the verge of tears, my chest hurts, my head is pounding and I'm sick to my stomach. Not so much over the possible outcome/fallout, but because of the stress I'm under to make the decision on whether to stay or go.
I just don't know what to do and I'm so tired of being ignored, left in the dark, taken advantage of, and the feeling that I'm supposed to be ok with it all. Well guess what, I'm not.
Not to mention the fact that two of my closest friends on here were able to make the decision with no problem. Deceit, dictatorship and total lack of respect are not the way to get what you are looking for.
Once I make my decision, if it's the one I'm leaning towards, you can bet your butt you will all know. For now, I'm keeping it quiet.
Would love feedback on this, but don't expect it.
Theresa
