I'm so sorry for everything. I screw things up and they become tangled...so tangled I can't unravel it. I wish I could say that things would get better....that people would stop hating me, but I might take a chance at lying if I said that. Look me in the eyes and you'll see that I regret the things Ive done...but would never change a second of my life. For the past is what has made my present...and that is what molds my future.
"Distance never seperates two hearts that really care, for our memories span the miles and in seconds we are there. But whenever I start feeling sad cause I miss you I remind myself how lucky I am to have someone so special to miss."
One day you're going to want that girl. That girl that knew she wasn't perfect, but tried to be perfect for you.The girl that believed the scraps of you she was given were worth it, because something was better than nothing. That girl who wanted nothing more than to be there for you, & loving you was the only way she could. The girl who sees your flaws, but values them as much as your strengths, that girl who still can't bring herself to hate you, even though sometimes you probably deserve it, that girl who saw past your pretty eyes & treasured parts of you that noone else has ever appreciated. The girl who realizes she may never have your heart, but will carry the image of you in hers forever, the girl that sees this & still loves you. The girl that should have you, but doesn't even though she deserves it.
Pain comes in all forms. The small twinge, a bit of soreness, the random pain, the normal pains we live with everyday. Then there's the kind of pain you can't ignore. A level of pain so great that it blocks out everything else... makes the rest of the world fade away, until all we can think about is how much we hurt. How we manage our pain is up to us. Pain, we anestitize, ride it out, embrace it, ignore it. and for some of us the best way to manage pain is to just push through it
