aspiringwriter's blog: "chain poems"

I set out to write a poem that would be inspirational, something anyone could read and be able to relate to. But although everyone has experienced something they consider painful not everyone has been through the same things I have been through. So I decided to write this without the intention of finishing it, I'll tell of my struggles but I'll leave it open ended so that a reader may pick it up and extend it so this poem may eventualy have all of lifes struggles in it. I lived my life alone and enclosed I kept my feelings inside so noone could hurt those, I've been rejected by everyone and everything from friends to girls and family. I experimented with drugs and lost my home, car and job. I've been hurt by my first love and had suicidal thoughts. I learned life is full of ups and downs, its got goods and bads and ins and outs. But these are things god uses to test us, just keep in mind these things happen to the best of us.

I haven't had it as hard as most ,some tests I've had to repeat... I've put myself out there and hidden myself away. Always picking how much i let people in. I have no regrets, but i know the power words can have...the ones you do and don''t say....I've talked friends down from the edge, trying not to fall over myself. Been told by more than one that i wasn't good enough for them to stay true. I have built up my walls, but there are a few cracks. Still a small corner. where my naive hope stays ..no matter how hard it bites me in the ass... constantly adjusting my scales of trust...battered but not broken. Though many have told me i am....so here it is for the world to see. a small sliver of whats happened to the best of me.