9:52PM -
Feeling lost, miserable
Not understanding why
Feeling exhausted, drained and ill
Can't find the strength
Watching, waiting and hoping
Waiting for something, anything
Trying to love
So confused
Did you lose her?
Do you care?
Questioning yourself
Believe you love her
Mentally kicking yourself
Sometimes self-abusive
Walls and barriers
Projection horrors
Hating your mother
She was too close
Shaking uncontrollably now
Can't take the pain of losing her
You won't admit it
So you sulk
Hating the thought of being owned
Wondering why you did it
Should have listened to her
To your heart
Been smart
Regrets
Fearing the unknown
Self loathing
Disembodied
No one's home
