If you've been reading my bulletins as of late and wonder why I'm depressed and I mean really wonder. My career is only half the reason why I'm glumly as of late. The other is I never had a girlfriend, never. Not a steady girlfriend, not even an unstable girlfriend. Since the date of my birth I've been bloody well single and for that reason is why I think I'm ugly. I have crushes over the decades of my miserable existence. Who hasn't, but they either had a boyfriend or had a crush on the cute kid in class. After high school, I was attracted to a girl across the street but what a bloody shock that she had someone and thought I was some kind of creepy stalker. So that's it, never had a girlfriend. Had sex about five to ten times in my life and that is with a friend of the family. Never been out on the date, even when I had the money to do so. There is an old saying that says there are two women per every man on this planet, that has got to be the biggest load of BS ever written. So, as long as I remain desperately alone and my career continues to float in the toilet, I will continue to be in a funk now and again. Hell, even if i sell a script tomorrow, as long as I have no woman to share it with, then it will be meaningless. Lonely with money is still lonely. That's the truth, the whole reason why I get depressed, I wasn't kidding when I use to call myself HORNY Christopher, if I was any hornier, I'd be jumping from mountain peak to mountain peak.
