I swear to god my life keeps getting more fucked up by the day.I keep trying to find someone.Every time that I get close to getting with someone new i eather chicken out because of the thought of being hurt again or I find someone more fucked up than the last one.Like the ex who wanted me and said she missed me.But turned out she had a boyfriend and was just playing games.I see women all the time i want to ask out.Yet I keep hearing a voice inside me saying that women are bad and evil.
Yet last night i talked to a woman i talked to once before.We flirted before she told me last night she was married.Yet she said her husband was sick and didn't have long.About five years or less.She said she cheated on him before but now that he is getting worse she is more fathful.I told her to find me in five years.
I don't condone cheating because thats what the last one did to me.Yet I haven't been laid in months and it did cross my mind.
I don't know....maybe i should become a priest and join a monastary?
