Is taking things slowly that bad? Is getting to know each other in a matter of months bad? Is taking your time to build this "house" a bad thing? In these days couples seem to be willing to jump head first into relationships. Not thinking about the outcome, not thinking about their kids if they have any. I am in a situation where my Heart wants to lead my life. I am taking things slowly, with my guy, us both having kids, understand that children get attached to a person. And if you choose to jump you may end up hurting your kids. So this is a first for both of us. It is kicking our asses. Leading with your heads, is very hard, you want to say the "goodnight I love you" But you don't because you don't want to rush this semi perfect thing. You want to hold each others hands all the time, sit next to each other during a movie, kiss and be like teenagers. But you can't, you have to think not just for yourself but for your kids. My kids really like my guy, which is wonderful, and I'm sure when I get to meet his daughter she will really like me, I can play barbies like I'm getting paid for it. So while my heart keeps telling me to say the things I'm not sure I mean like the "I love you", or the "I want to live with you" or the "I want this to work so badly it hurts somedays" I am leading with my head. My head says "wait it out" make sure you mean what you say, He doesn't want to hear an "I love you" if you don't mean it 100%. I do love so much about him, I love his hair, and the way he holds me at night, the way he can make me feel so special, the way he makes fun of me, the way he uses his sarcasism(when I am not sensitive), the way I know he would stand up for me with my family. I love the way he moves, the way he puts his arms around me, the way my arms fit perfectly around him. But all of these little things don't add up to true, unending, powerful, nonstop, I can't feel my feet love. They add up to this is working I'm learning about you, you are learning about me, there is so much left to learn about each of us it is a crazy thing. I do look forward to the day if it comes that I can introduce him as My boyfriend, but for now I am happy with calling him my friend, because he is just that my friend. So I do think taking this slow is the right way to go in this "relationship".
