Is it really worth it to continue to be nice and sweet to people who do nothing but use you for everything they can get from you then when you are of no use to them, you're disposable/replaceable????
I really am starting to think why bother. It causes too much hurt and pain and all the way around is just more stress and irritation to deal with, plus it takes all the energy you have to front up so no one notices how crappy you've been made to feel.
Only those certain people who actually care enough to be there for you and see through that front you have so wonderfully constructed to fool everyone with, seem to be the reason. Even those are very few and far between.
I already know I'm not the average person when it comes to emotional things. I feel and see things very differently than most and maybe that's the problem. I guess maybe I have a different philosophy on how people should be towards others, especially if in fact they are friends. I think maybe too many people call other people friends when in fact they are only people that they know briefly.
Funny thing is, is if you're my friend, then YOU KNOW ME!!!! You have my friendship, trust, loyalty,love. Problem is when you don't get that back, it makes you wonder what the point was of becoming friends in the first place.
Friendship is just as bad as a relationship in that when you get hurt by someone you've given your trust and loyalty too, it still hurt every bit the same. When people know this is how you are, they use it to their advantage and they will take advantage of that so they can get what they want.
I'm not like that so I guess that makes me the target then. I bend over backwards for my friends, hell I do it even for people that aren't close friends just because and I never get anything back for it. You'd think after people telling me to stop and getting used over and over I'd quit.
Yet I keep doing it, so I guess sometimes people really don't learn or know any better. I'm me and I've always been like this so I guess I can't change that and I don't really want to, but I could really do without the hurt and pain all the time!!!!
