I have came to the conclusion that this world will never be
what I want it to be, or even what I expect it to be. I don't
belong here. Heh. Who would have guessed that one. I won't
leave everything I have to make anyone feel that it's not
too late to make things right. Because in reality, it's never too late.
I can keep telling you that it's gonna be alright, everything
will be fine. But in the end, you still want to change your mind
and wish everything to end, including your life. Every so often I try
to make things right. To make you feel wanted. To make you
feel needed. The way that it should be, but still... It's not enough.
Maybe one day, you'll realize this, and I hope that it's not
too late for this to happen so you can enjoy what's left of
an already fucked up world. No one ever sees this side of you,
the side that I have seen, that I've heard, that I've witnessed.
When something's wrong, nobody knows, but I see it. I hear it.
I sense it. I have done everything I could. To try to make you see
that everything will be alright. If you just opened your eyes,
and see what's right in front of you, what has been in front of you
That has fought for you. As fought beside you. To the end.
The world we both know won't turn back the hands of time, all the time
spent trying to make it right, we have lost, and there is no
gaining that back. The life we had, won't hurt us no more. It's done.
It's over. The past doesn't come back unless you let it come back.
What part of that do you not understand. It's not too late to change it.
It only repeats itself when YOU let it repeat itself. I have done
all I could do. There's nothing left. I have reached my hand out to you
so many times, to try to be there for you. To help you. And I
keep being pushed away. So I have no choice but to walk away.
You've pushed me to this. YOU forced me. There is no one to blame
except YOU. I hope you see who really cares. I hope someday soon
you open your eyes and you realize what's going on. That you see
with your own eyes... that it's not too late.