And this evening, after a night of bowling and talking to my friend from NYC on the phone, I spent entirely too much time at the bar and am now home... by myself... and crying.
It's stupid. I shouldn't be. But, that's what's happening. I'm lonely, and I can't do anything about it.
Worst part about it is, the people on my list will probably remove me for saying so, citing "too much negativity" as a reason. But, when all you can think of is trying to find ways to spend your time off with others than yourself, and you can't, what exactly are you supposed to do?
Anyway, I don't expect anyone to read this. It seems like I'm the only one who reads my blogs lately. A person on my list is threatning to kill herself over the same lonliness issues. What's sorry is that I can't even help myself... much less, her.
