XaviRoseMaiden's blog: "thinking , reflecting"

is that bad to wish that person felt regret after deciding not to keep you .. if so then i'm guilty of this a few times in my life .. Guilty of giving way to much.. for so little in return ... . I am someone else as a result i stand stronger , more proud , willing to take control of my own destiny .. so for that i thankyou all of you in my life that have my heart .. and made it because ive grown each time .. strong enough to stand on my own .. and know that i dont have to have man to be happy .. but its nice to have them and friends around for company , good conversation dancing .. im not the broken women i once was .. i love me .. and i beleive in my dreams and goals .. and i bleive i deserve the best that life has to offer . and some will judge me for this but its is of consquence i dont not answer to them .. i only answer to myself and my own conscience and to my standards of living ...

for a man i desire is a man who is willing to be a man , a manly who is my partner in all things .. my confident .. and one who wishes to be part of a family .. to understand and care who i really am .. beyong the glitiz the glamour and lust .. and follows in my path ..

too long have i loved thee who may not be worthy of my attensions .. too long have for thee .have not wanted to know the real me .. too long have loved thee  who only wanted something from me ...

real love doesnt doesnt fade in days .. or months .. sometimes even years .. real love is incredible i felt it .. i loved it and i had it ..

but life is too short to chase after everyone in out path .. life its too short to be waste ones time in the past ..

for we must go on .. and into the future .. into new beginings new loves .. new expriences..

i want one that will share in my journey .. not just try to write his own . i belong in his .. naturally .. a love were each support each other .. and wish the best for each other and thier familys and friends ...

now that is love ... that is the kind of love i search for ...

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