Why am i so angry!?
i'm sitting here fuming inside
boiling with an inner anguish and pain
what is the rationality behind it?
i guess thats the point
to be angry leads to irrationality
irrational thought leads to irrational actions
irrational actions lead to more pain
more anguish
more boiling anger
its a vicious circle
why cant i end it?
why does it start?
it starts every time with a simple action
a gesture
a facial expression
a feeling of being shunned
feeling alone
being alone
my anger starts to boil
i feel alone with my thoughts
no distractions
just the inner anguish
bubbling inside
pressure builds
my expression changes
rationality leaves my mind
irrationality reigns inside
i try to vent
i start to vent
the small voice of reason sounds in the inner recesses of my mind
don't do it
calm down
how?
why?
would it be so wrong to vent?
yes
why?
venting is a good thing surely
no
venting leads to calm
but
for anyone caught in the bubbling torrent of anger
anguish begins
they havent done anything to deserve the anguish and pain
irrationality has caused their pain
but why?
why did the irrationality begin?
Jealousy
a feeling of being ignored
loneliness
being alone with your thoughts
the jealous thoughts
why do they occur?
loneliness
what does loneliness cause?
jealousy
what does jealousy cause?
anguish
inner pain
irrationality
what does irrationality cause?
loneliness
it is a vicious circle
one i hope to break
all it takes is three words
