Why is it that one minute you are treating me like gold and the next you are treating me like dirt? For some fucked up reason I feel as though I need your approval, and if I don't have it I feel like I'm not worth spit. You're not even a reletive you are just a guy I know that for whatever reasons I want to be with. I know that that will never happen as you just see me as a young, cheap and easy booty call even tohugh you tell people that I'm very mentally, emotionally and psychally strong, you tell them I am your equal. I've been through so much in the last 8 months, mom and dad getting killed in a carwreck, one of my great-uncles dying not two weeks later, then another great-uncle dying a few months later, loosing my dog the day after christmas. I think I deserve to be treated better than just some common street whore. I am going to law school, I am couping with events in which I have every right to loose my mind and take my life over btu I have gone strong and persevered although I feel as though God has turned his back on me. I just keep reminding myself that no person is put through harder trails and more pain than they can endore. You are 13 years my senoir, but that fact doesn't bother me never has. You are taking a girl that is so wonderful and imperfectly perfect in her own rights and making her walk on egg shells and act/feel like a whipped pup. You talk to me when it convenices you, in other words when you want to use me, and at other times if you do not want to speak to me, or need me, or it doesn't convenice you, I am suppose to fold up and go under the bed or into a closet. Damnit I am not a blow-up doll! I am a person, and a very wonderful and special one at that. I am giving you till May to strighten up and start treating me like I deserve to be treated, or you are out of me life forever, and your "beloved" Kitten is gone along with her purrs.
