irishscottish's blog: "irishscottish"

there are six things you hate, O Lord, seven that are detestable to You; Haughty eyes, a lying tongue, hands that shed innocent blood, a heart that devises wicked plans, feet that run swiftly to evil, a false witness who breathes lies, and one who causes strife among brothers and sisters.

After the fire, There is a choise to see only ashes, charred memories and possessions or to stand,thankful,on holy ground, seeing what the flames could not burn and destroy, the presence of God, and his hand at work, refining and polishing his people, as we anticipate, catch the glowing flame of transformation, becoming aligned with his plan, being a part of something we don't understand, but trusting the one who is in control. God is near. k.s.

having been healed of running a jackhammer through my foot, i have come to know a couple of prayers to help me through rough times. the first is this,"God, i offer myself to thee- to build with me and to do with me as thou wilt. relieve me of the bondage of self, that i may better do thy will. take away my difficulties, that victory over them may bear witness to those i would help of thy power, thy love, and thy way of life. may i do thy will allways, in Jesus name amen." the second one is "lord, make me a channel of thy peace-that where there is hatred, i may bring love-that where there is wrong, i may bring the spirit of forgivness-that where there is discord, i may bring harmony-that where there is error, i may bring truth-that where there is doubt, i may bring faith-that where there is despair, i may bring hope-that where there are shadows, i may bring light-that where there is sadness, i may bring joy. Lord, grant that i may seek rather to comfort than to be comforted-to understand, than to be understood-to love, than to be loved. for it is by self-forgetting that one finds. it is by forgiving that one is forgiven. it is by dying that one awakens to eternal life. in Jesus name amen. even though easyer said than done, as long as i try i become a better person. i only know this has help me, i hope it is usefull to you.

haveing every thing taken away, from family to job, i have had to sit. evauluating my life, i see i have to make changes. to be suronded by friends who care, and are here to help not destroy, i now see where i have gone wrong. being selfish, selfcenterness,egotiscal, and full of fear, i pushed everything and one away from me. man am i sorry. so i have given myself to God of my understanding and mighty changes have taken place. my heart of revenge has been replaced with a heart of forgivness, my anger replaced with love, my intolerance with understanding, these things came when i ask God to take away my uncontroling desire for alcohol. no one could get me to quit drinking. no one had the power to do so, including myself. for today i have no thought of drinking. thank God for that. my God is kind, forgiving, loving, patiant, helpfull. my God of my understanding. i just pray that he gives me the power and right my wrongs, to repair the damage i have created. to be given one last chance. to move forward with him in my life. though it may seem weak, but i would rather be weak with God, than strong with man. i am ready to face life on lifes tearms.

for a long time i have been really weird about the computer world, now that i have faced that fear, i see it was all in my head. what a dipshit i have been. thanks to all you cool people out there, i am now having fun and realizing this is cool beans. thanks everyone!!

life can through some mean curves, a so called freind decided to tell me that he knew for a fact that my wife had cheated on me. well asking my wife about this, it was all denial. funny when i was sober i beleived her, but when i got drunk all kinds of shit came out my neck. well she through me out. cant blame her. then when we finaly started talking and things were looking up, guess who comes up and tell her that i ask him to spy on her. well shit, every thing in the tolite. though i'm inocent the bastered has the nerve to call and say he did it for revenge. because i ask him not to be spending so much time with my wife when i'm at work. then to top it off i told him it was not his place to be disaplening my chidren when i'm not home. so life has sucked and i been getting through the bullshit,but today i ran a 60 pound jackhammer through my foot. work was where i could exscape the shit. now i get to sit on my ass and eat oxys. wow what a feller to do now?

i'm a carpenter apprentice, finishing my 4th year. husband of the most beautiful woman in the world, father of 3 great kids with one on the way. i work hard and try hard to pay all the bills. but like most people i'm never cought up. just trying to see what all the hoopla is about on being on line. so i'm taking a chance and trying to figure this out.

i once read,if you love someone to hunt them down untill they give in. i have a problem with this. to hunt them down untill they give in, ihave been guilty of. what i learned is all i did was clip thear wings and they couldn't fly. thear heart beat the throughs of death. and thear spirit was of defeat. to see this hurts. so now i'll try something new,i will let them go. if they come back, it will be with wings of freedom. a heart that beats life. and a spirit of confidance. for truely this would be a real love of freedom, not of captivity. if they don't come back,well one day i will learn to live with the pain, whitch is better than living with a captive. very scary move, but i must be able to live with myself.

ever wonder how a persn can be found guilty of crap that never happened. what is it in there minds that forgets to ask questions, to investigate, before accusing. man makes me wonder what is really going on.

after spending years in alcohol, i'm clean and sober. i have screwed up every thing that is dear to me. now i'm taking time to change the only thing i can change me. i leave the rest to God. i'm new to this and not quite sure how to go about it. but my wife has been lost in here for along time,and now i have time to find out why.any and all help will be apreceiated.