Why is it that I put all of myself into something r someone, only to be taken on a ride and led on......? Why is it that I do nothing but everything for someone only to be stomped on and made to feel inadequate and less than mediocre. Why do I feel that if I try even harder, that I'll be wanted and excepted and that someone or something will want to change because I'm so damn special they know if they lose me it'd be very hard to move on...? But what if I',m not that great...or what if I keep putting up with all the bullshit....? Wht if I really staart not caring....? What if my spirit is broken....and I remain an empty shell of the person I once was.....? I feel the life being sucked out of me but I do nothing to stop it because I know it's useless....because I'm halfway there...
--Daphne Du Maurier
Frenchmans Creek
