Trouble's blog: "Inside Of Me"

My Missing Parts

Why were they taken,

Way before their time?

You must have be mistaken,

Maybe the wrong place or time?

Their love I do still feel,

Even though you've stolen them,

Is there a time I'll fully heal?

My mind races with memories of them.

Their hearts were huge,

Their smiles so bright,

I've lost my refuge,

Ihope what you've done is right.

Never whole will my heart ever be,

Thanks to what you've done,

Can't you see,

You've done it..you've won.

Right here and now,

I break out a cry,

Wondering how,

I can allow myself to cry.

Where's my strength,

I want it back,

I'll go to any length,

For my strength I cannot lack.

Tell them I love them,

I miss them too,

I'll always think of them,

Keep them safe while they're with you.

By: Shirley

Lost In My Confusion

What's wrong with me?

Was I wrong?

Why can't I see?

Why after soo long?

Full of confusion,

Full of the mix of love and hate,

All arises from a few word from my son,

Too little..too late?

Am I just too pig headed?

Or still me being strong?

Where's my life headed?

Where is it I've gone wrong?

My mind, it wonders,

I can't make it stop,

Right this moment my mind wonders,

Have my emotions gone over the top?

What's wrong with me?

Was I wrong?

Why can't I see?

Why after soo long?

By: Shirley

Inside Of Me

I'm battered and bruised,

I've always been used,

When shall this torment all end,

I so need that time to mend,

My hearts been ripped out,

Why must they all throw it about,

Strong on the outside yet weak within,

I'll never have my turn to win,

No feelings of being worthy of someone,

To love and care with a little fun,

Why oh why does it have to be,

I never take time to think of me,

They see the beauty on the outside and in,

Will my sight of this ever begin,

I see such the most horid creatures,

With the worst of features,

Daily and nightly I tend to cry,

Continueously asking why oh why,

Never once shall you pitty me,

Because I will never truely let you see,

I've been hurt by YOU,

The truth of your identity will hide too.

By: Shirley