I am done with this indulgent Self pitting bullshit.
I unbind myself from my emotional chains.
I walk away from the dulling drugs.
the flask is left full.
Spiders scatter from my arms,
webbing hangs from my form.
Left long sitting where i was left.
Inchs of dust take to flight,
like images in some forgotten dream.
I walk on uncertain feet, but on my own.
I do not need your hands.
You had what you needed from me.
USed and left where I was dropped.
I am no longer your doll.
I was your fool, but those words bleed from my eyes.
Clear and salt.
I am purified.
Jaundace fades like ice cream in heat.
Eyes see the weakness in you.
I keep walking,
One foot then the other.
A trail left behind me of rubber chains,
hallow promises, and broken hearts.
A warning fired across the space between you and me.
I turn and look at you with a smirk.
you think you have me till my hands press the door.
Suddenly I am bathed in brilliant light.
It falls on me and the dirt is gone.
I am bared beautiful before the sight of my faith.
I step onto the heat and look back at you.
Dressed in charcoal gray, dark eyes smudged.
I am not innocent. But I still am AN innocent.
I made this mistake of my own feet.
But I walked out of them.
I rise on my own hearts wings.
you did not clip my ability to fly,
you just broke me to think I was less then I was.
You are below me, and I am still good.
your words might sting and leave a mark,
but that is just it. words. I am made up of so much more.
You cannot lay me low,
Only I can allow it.
