ElegantEclipse's blog: "My Poetry"

Walking in the rain, I feel it beating down. Hard against my skin, I wonder if it will ever end. Does it even matter, It has a purpose now. It allows me to walk in silence, And let my tears stream down. Tears of life's pain, No one could ever understand. They don't know, Nor do they care, How it is for me now. Where it is I sit, And where it is I stand. Pain is what I know best, My cross is hard to bear. God won't take me home, He keeps saying it is not my time yet. I sometimes wish I had the guts, To blow my brains out. I wouldn't feel the pain. I wouldn't have to hide in the rain. My soul wouldn't be heavy, By this life that is full of burdens. Where did I go wrong. Why did I get this heart I carry. It seems all I ever get is shit. Yet I know I can handle all of it. He comes and sit with me at night. He always says it will be alright. You are strong in many ways, This life of lessons has made you gain. Your soul has grown more than you shall know. You are wiser than you allow yourself to believe. I still go out and walk in the rain, I always have to hide my pain. What if I were to fall apart? How many people would I let down? Is it really worth it anyway, How I love and only feel pain. So here I am if you want a turn, You can kick me when I am down. No one would even notice, No one would even care. There is no one here to hold me. No one that wants to love me. Why is life so fucked up. Gawd I just want to get out. So I don't have to walk in the rain. Dee Parenti All Rights Reserved