In the Land of Oz….New Year’s Thoughts…. And Other Things …..
I thought with everything that's happened this year it would be good for me to review the year and try to end on a more positive note. I have had to learn a lot of difficult lessons this year but also many good things too. So for myself I've decided to make a list of things I've learned this year. I frequently have said that I have felt like a "fish out of water" or "lost without a map" … but I have also felt like 'Dorothy in the Land of Oz"…. a stranger in an unfamiliar land… exploring the inner me. I have encountered "flying monkeys", warriors, traveling companions and more. I have also been "lost" several times this year, taken hostage (by my emotions), and have had more than one interesting adventure. I have at times felt in "mortal peril", at the "end of my rope", and "out on a limb", (metaphorically speaking)… but I have survived it all and am ready for the next leg of my personal journey.
So here is a list of things I have learned this year:
**** That I am a good person… but I make loads of mistakes. But am willing to learn from them.
**** That I have more really good friends than I ever realized.
**** That I have family that care about me…. no matter what.
**** That I am fearful of: rejection, being un-loved, loneliness, change, and the unknown… along with high open places and deep water.
**** That I really love to write… about everything and anything. And that that makes me happy.
**** That I have 4 great kids that I wouldn't trade for anything in the world.
**** That I like having new interests and new people in my life… even if it does make me feel a little crazy sometimes.
****That I am still learning about who I am. and am comfortable with that.
**** That I am unique…. and that's OK… too.
**** That I like learning new, unique and interesting things.
**** That I still believe in "kindred spirits" and keep adding them to my list of favorite people in my life…. whether they know it or not.
**** That I have a lot of love to share…. but that I realize I don't really understand love at all… and am still learning.
****That I talk too much sometimes and I have to learn to listen. Not just to other people but also to the "inner me".
****That I am a dreamer and I have dreams and that is ok too. That it is not wrong to have dream.
****- That people will not always understand you even if you help them try... and that is ok. You don't always have to be understood.
****That life and people are hard sometimes hard to understand. But that doesn't mean you stop trying.
****-That there will always be people in my life to catch me when I fall, help me, and teach me... and that I am grateful for that.
***That I will try to gratefully and without fear do the same for others. help them, and catch them if they need it.
**** That I still have a lot to learn about everything. That I know less about everything than I ever suspected.
**** That if I keep going with this list it will be as long as my arm or longer…. LOL….
So, I am also learning when to stop, and when to let go…
So this is my very partial list of things I've learned this year. And I must say it is VERY partial. And in doing this it makes me wonder what my friends have learned this year. So I hope those of you who stop and read this blog while I am away for the New Year will leave a comment sharing either one thing or many, about what you might have learned in 2007.
