hexsign's blog: "In Memory of 2Bears"

Months have passed now, nearly 3 - since Andy has left us. I still sit here and wish I could have stopped what happened somehow - although I know I could not. I wish he would have let us know how much he hurt inside or what was going on in his head but that would have put us on alert and he did not want us to stop him. He was bound and determined to leave and no one could have done a thing. I only hope and pray every single day that he is in a better place now, at peace, happy and being that silly goof that he always was. I miss you Andy, I love you.

Some time has passed now since we lost a truly wonderful person. Some of you knew him as 2Bears, others knew him as Andy. He was both my brother and my friend. Andy was someone with many talents and gifts, he could make anyone laugh and could make the most serious of things out to be funny. There was rarely a dull moment in his presence. He was artistic and musically inclined, creative, witty, comical, silly, generous, caring, intelligent, a hard worker and all around, just a great guy. He really cared deeply about the people around him. Andy dedicated many years to the AA program and helping so many in their recoveries. Members from the program came to his service and expressed how important Andy was to them, he was the reason why they continued to attend meetings and some admitted that it was Andy who was responsible for initially getting them to enter the program for help. These people were there with tight hugs and such comfort for me. Although they were complete strangers somehow it felt as though they were all close friends. It goes to show that there is still some good in this crazy world. I am having the most difficult time handling this loss. I feel as though I am walking around with a huge hole in my heart and my soul is darkened with an empty void. My friends and relatives have been supportive and for that I am grateful, I also must thank several of you here on Fubar as well, for the kind words of condolences. Your thoughtfulness is truly appreciated. One message that I would like to strongly stress from this is to NOT TAKE FOR GRANTED anyone in your life that your love. Just don't take anything for granted. Always say, "I love you." Let those to whom you are close know that you care and you are there. Life is too short and you never know what can happen, someone can be gone in a second and the regret of things left unsaid is frustrating! I know in my heart that my brother knew how much I love him. My only regret today is that he is not still with us! I pray that he is at eternal peace and in a better place now with the angels - more than likely he is making them all laugh! He will never be forgotten! In loving memory of my brother Andy... Rest in Peace I love you!