Today I was numb. I couldn´t cry at all. I could think about it, but I couldn´t feel.
I went through her jewelry today. And I am wearing her slippers. It sounds weird to say that.
I was just supposed to go on vacation. My family reunion. In the Florida Keys, no less. I was going to have so much fun. But every bit of fun I had was marred by one thing: worry and fear.
I chose not to be there while it was happening. I can´t watch someone die. I just can´t. But I was there afterwards. And we made all the funeral arrangements and took care of her things, and held a memorial service. It was overwhelming.
And now I am numb today. Maybe tomorrow will be different. Goodbye grandma.......
