Well not many of you people on here know about what has happened in my past but Im sure a lot of you have noticed my name change on here. Im still broken but Im trying to glue those pieces back together. Theres not a day that goes by that he doesnt hurt me in some way but Im a strong woman and Im going to survive this. After all I have survived a lot of things so why cant I survive this? I talked to him for the first time the other night in like a month and I mean really talked to him. I let him know that Im here for him when he needs to talk and that I do care what happens to him. I know our relationship (whats left of it) isnt going to move any further. He has a lot of stuff going on in his life, I made the choice to take a step back and let him handle it. He knows Im here but when hes ready to be with me I may or may not be available. We will just see.
I have met a great guy, its just in the talking stage right now but ya never know. Im taking this one really slow for now. Afterall I have learned I cant trust my judgement anymore. I thought that Michael was different, I really thought that I had found the man I was meant to be with and a part of me still feels that way but there are just to many things going on in his life and mine for us to be together right now maybe in the future but I dont know.
