where is my life going?
i wish i knew
i thought i did then he walked away for someone new
i thought i was happy and content but i know see i wasnt
why cant i just get over it?
why is it taking this long?
why cant i find someone else to prove to me he was wrong?
am i that useless?
am i that bad?
am i that ugly?
what did i do wrong?
why do i have to feel so unworthy?
why does it have to hurt this way?
would anyone even notice if i was gone?
would anyone care?
would you notice if i was no longer here?
you dont know me
i dont know myself anymore
my medications work to make me seem happy but i dont think i really am
dont tell me im wrong
dont tell me itll be ok
let me have my thoughts
my doubts
words mean nothing actions mean everything
i hear the words people say but their actions tell me differently
which am i to believe?
words or actions?
actions speak louder than words
but words you know what they mean actions can be deceiving
id rather be hated for who i am than to be loved for who im not