Today I woke up and could not utter a word. It was not because I could not speak it was mearly because when I opened my mouth to speak nothing would allow itself to come out.
I have been sitting here in the silence for a while. I do not understand the silence. Is it just because I have nothing to say. Is it because I am afraid of what I might say if any sound comes out of me.
I know that my life is not my own anymore. I started to change some time ago. I let peices of me go and pushed them out of my way, because they didnt fit in my life. Who I was, was pushed out of the way as well. But I didnt notice I was doing was I forgot to replace the things I was getting rid of with new things. And so now I have left myself an empty shell.
I am afraid I don't know who I am any more or what I will become in the future because of this all. All I know is all of this is what pushed me into complete silence.
Will I ever get my heart back so my voice will follow it, because as it stands I have no voice in this world and the Silence is Deafening...
