Ok well today @ 2:30 i have a doc apt for her..
She is favoring her left side, Her right side is he-man strong.. But like i said shes favoring her left.. for those who dont know, She was born 8lbs 5 oz May 12th of this year, She was 3 weeks early,
So, this will be a continuing blog, I'm scared to think she may have muscle problems, But we shall soon find out..
shes going today to get her first series of shots. poor girl, I hate having to drug them afterwards to keep any possible fever down,
So, on goes my daily fight with Bane, I snapped last night and said something i totally regret..
"I don't care about illyria" I said this out of my own selfishness,. Anyone who knows me knows That that's a bullshit lie I bend over for my kids, sometimes tying myself in knots to make sure they have everything they could possible need.
It doesn't help bane has to fight.. in this world for the love of our other daughter Jadein aka J-bug.. He asked her do you love mommy she said yup! sure do.. when he asked if she loved him she shook her head no.. with a serious face.. So i understand he is stressed out and my un medicated bi-polar ass prolly doesn't help I haven't had post pardum with illyria. SO im all jacked up with the floods of emotion.. etc.. ok enough rambling ill write back what the doc says about Ria,
