XaviRoseMaiden's blog: "thinking , reflecting"

A new year has just begun , the old memories are slowly fading away , away to a private place .. a darm room and i've locked the door and put the key on my keychain .. along with most of the hate , the rage , the betrayal ..

it serves no purpose to dwell in this pain constantly, and yet sometimes its like it sneaks out when u least expect it .. whewn u least feel like u can handle it but still u have to go on.

And when u keep going on , hour by hour , day by day u realise that you can .. and you must find a way through ..

your heart begins to sew its itself up and the scars ..

But once the deicsion is made to leave to return is alomst impossible becuase the heart has moved on in many ways .. and yet the connection is still there ...

i still love him in some way and i always will but .. i don't think i'll ever trust him thesame way again or ever froget what he did .. to us .. to everything we had .. and that still burns .. burns a hole deep in my soul ..i fear it always will ..

but i thought i t was better to move on then to constantly hate and make him feel like the scum of the earth ... still he want my love .. to be my soulmate .. but alas ..

his juliet is gone .. she is more bitter  ,twisted her words will cut him like a knife , if he only provokes her just a little bit .. so she knows she's done the right thing .. but to see him hurt still hurts her ..

she cares too much .. she always has and always will .. in a world where few seem to care about anything anymore ..