People say ignorance is bliss,
yes im sure it might be true,
its not assured,
but can be true.
What of the things you cant ignore?
the many facts brought straight to you,
the many things you can not change,
the many paths already paved.
What if i cant ignore?
all those things that have occured,
they make me change,
they make me cold,
i cant ignore,
not all the pain caused,
all the friends lost,
its happend before.
What of the pain?
the pain thats lasts from month to month,
i feel it come, its hard to change,
and overcome,
and yet so easy to accept.
What of the people that have my trust?
and that of those i should avoid,
it really hurts to be betrayed,
i dont like that,
its too much pain.
What of those nights?
ive cried at night,
while i just lay there in the dark,
my only grip of life,
was to hold my pillow tight,
and let all emotions,
just run throughout.
What of my change?
of wanting to avoid my friends,
that i just feel i should leave them,
without me they'll do just the same.
What of this feeling?
hopelessness,
the feeling of loosing it all ,
family , friends,
people i cherish,
of having just that need to talk,
to open up to speak my thoughts,
but feeling no one's there to listen.
All i can do is hope for change,
to change my self in better ways,
to overcome this loneliness.
