Lillith aka Dee's blog: "Fed Up"

You make my knees go weak and my head spin.

I wake up each day wondering how soon till I see you? Feeling my heart beat faster  as I look from face to face wanting more then nothing for one of them to be you.

Needing to hear you voice so that my heart will go on beating for the blood to flow with in my vains.

Holding  you close is what I live for.

Wanting to have you be the first thing when I wake up the last thing that I see be4 I close my eyes.

I want to be the one that fills all of you dreams only to make more with you.

to be on your mind as much as you are on mine.

you fill my every thought. Wanting  nothing more to fill you life with love and wanting.

To show you love and all that you are worth.

Needing to have your words fill my head as my hands run a long your body till I know you as well if not better then my self.

Your smile so much more brighter then the sun, moon or any of the stars.

To hear that you want me as much as I want you would be a gift unlike any other.

You are my one my only my everything.

And the worst part of all this you dont even know.

Wanting to tell you all this feeling it on my lips my heart raceing out of my chest each time. but knowing not to say do to you could never feel the same way that I do.

you could not want me the way that I want you.

So each day and night I hold it all in each word and each thought well I put a smile on my face and walk around as if there was nothing wrong. Holding my self together only a little just to have you any way that I can get you.

To have you be happy even be4 my self want and needs.

Knowing that even with one word it would all go up in smoke. 

So I will stand on the side lines watch as others get what I want and what I need all just to see that smile on your face one last time.