So many thought running through my mind…and there not good thoughts…there thoughts of sadness, angriness, jealously, loneliness, and emptiness…the list can go on and on. I just don’t know what to do or how to handle it… I called in at work today…just didn’t want to go in… that’s one of the things that is bothering me…I’m simply sick and tired of the environment I’m working in…Another thing that is bothering me is my kitty. I’ve had her for 17 ½ years now, and she is now starting to go down hill just like her brother did just a bit over a year ago…I took that so hard…its still hard thinking about it…I still get teary eyed over him…and now the tears are starting for her. After she’s gone…I think I have made up my mind to no longer have any pets, it hurts way fricken to much… But if I know me…I’ll see some poor lost animal walking along looking hungry and cold…and my heart will go out and pick him/her up and do what I can for them…I wish I wasn’t this way…only because its setting myself up for hurting…but it seems to be my nature...setting myself up for hurting or to be hurt. People come and go into our lives…to many of them seem to go for one reason or another. And sometimes it’s me who will be the one to go… If I feel not wanted I won’t hang around…If people are players, cheaters, fakes and what not …I don’t need that crap and that’s something that will sooner or later make me say bye bye. I’m a good person with a big heart, I’m understanding…I’m not judgmental…No one is perfect…I know I’m far from it…

I'm sick of it all…I'm sick of the stories… I'm sick of the games…
I'm sick and tired of getting my heart stomped on.
Why am I so fricken stupid to believe the stuff someone tells me?
I so sometimes hate being me… and this is one of those times.

"Life isnt like a box of chocolates...
Its more like a jar of jalapenos...
What you do today, might burn your ass tomorrow."