HEY MOM, WHATS UP? WHATS SHANGRI-LA LIKE? IS IT REALLY AS BEAUTIFUL AS PEOPLE SAY? WELL, IM WRITING YOU TO LET YOU KNOW THAT I STILL LOVE YOU I KNOW IT'S BEEN TWO YEARS AND I SHOULD BE OVER IT BUT MOM IM STILL HOLDING ON I REMEMBER WHEN I FIRST MET YOU I WAS 7 YEARS OLD AND MY DAD INTRODUCED US AND TOLD ME YOU WERE HIS GIRLFRIEND I REMEMBER THE EGG DONOR WAS TREATIN ME LIKE SHIT AND YOU STEPPED UP AND BECAME A MOM WE MET IN THE SUMMER OF '93 AND WE HIT IT OFF FROM THE START IN '95 WHEN WE WENT TO PICK OUT A WEDDING DRESS I FIRST CALLED U MOM AND U WERE SO HAPPY U HAD TEARS OF JOY IN UR EYES WHEN U MARRIED MY DAD AT FIRST I REBELLED CUZ I WAS TOLD U WERE TAKIN HIM FROM ME AND I WAS PISSED THEN WHEN I TURNED 11 U BECAME MY BEST FRIEND WE WERE SO CLOSE I COULD TELL U ANYTHING U TOOK ME OUTTA THE DEVIL WORSHIP HOUSE FOR GOOD WHEN I WAS 16 MOM U SAVED ME FROM ABUSE AND NEGLECT AND SUICIDE MOM I LOVE U SO MUCH AND THAN WHEN I WAS 17 ABOUT TO TURN 18 U WERE IN THE HOSPITAL ONLY SHORTLY TO DIE ON FEBRUARY 20,2004, 1 DAY AFTER THE MARK OF 4 MTHS TILL MY 18TH BDAY MAN I WANTED U TO SEE ME GO TO PROM AND GRADUATE AND SEND ME OFF TO COLLEGE MOM DID I CAUSE UR HEART ATTACKS AM I THE REASON U ARE IN HEAVEN AND NOT WITH ME I KNOW I WAS HELL ON WHEELS BUT I DIDNT WANNA LOSE U IM SRY FOR ALL THE PAIN AND AGONY I PUT U THRU WISH I COULD MAKE IT UP TO U NOW ALL I CAN DO IS TALK TO U THRU THIS PEN AND THIOS PAPER MOM I MISS U AND WISH I COULD HAVE ONE MORE DAY WITH U WILL I SEE U AGAIN SOME DAY I HOPE SO THATS WHY IVE MATURED AND I GO TO CHURCH AND TRY TO LIVE RIGHT ITS HARD TO DO THIS ON MY OWN MOM DADS BACK IN MY LIFE NOW IM DOING WHAT U ASKED I GRADUATED IN 04 AND IM IN COLLEGE FOLLOWING UR DREAM TO BE A NURSE I LOVE U AND I MISS U I HOPE THAT U COME AND SEE ME AS THE GRANDMA IN 7TH HEAVEN DID THE OLDEST GIRL MOM I HOPE U SEE THAT I AM THE PROUD MOMMY NOW THAT U ONCE WERE I LOVE AND MISS U WELL I CAN SAY THAT I AM TRYING TO MAKE U PROUD OF ME WELL I WILL WRITE MORE LATER MOMMY HOPE TO HEAR FROM U SOON
LOVE, YOUR BABY GIRL, SARAH JEAN
