It seems people know who I am. I wonder how this can be when I don't spend any time with them. If you knew me you would know that it is hard for me to let people in my life. If you knew me you would know just how much pain in life I have gone through.
If anyone finds me let me know. I am starting to believe that I am losing myself. I find myself looking for the impossible situations instead of what is right in front of me. I have been told that I have pushed some away from me, but if you knew me you would know it is only to protect myself from getting hurt. I fear putting my heart out there again only to have it crushed. How much more heartache and pain do I need to go through before I can find my happiness. Why does love have to be so difficult?
Is it possible to find happiness anymore? Once upon a time is just that. Too many people are jaded and left with doubt that there will ever be the one for them. I can see that now, but please don't even try to give the happily ever after story. Don't come into my life and then not see me, yet talk to me often. Mixed messages cause more damage than just walking out and never looking back. I understand confusion and I know I am not the only one. As I like to say call a spade a spade, be upfront and honest. I think that maybe if we all started doing this a little more instead of worrying about who's feelings will get hurt, life would be a hell of a lot simpler?
Tell me if I am wrong!
