I Know Its Long You Dont Have To Read It But This Is The Update With My X.. IDK What To Do HEs Stupid... Should I Move On?? Or Keep Trying Cause One Of These Days He'll RElize?!
Kyle: wats up
Me: n2m u
Kyle: nuttin chillin wit tom
Me: tell tom i say hi!
Me: haha
Kyle: he says word
Me: haha swet
Me: sweet*
Kyle: yea duder
Me: haha so whats good with u guys?! anythign?
Kyle: nope
Kyle: so are we still chillin this weekend
Me: uhm i havent hurd from michaela or danny so idk whats up with them.. do u still wanna chill?
Kyle: i guess i aint doin anything except on saturday
Me: yeah same here...
Kyle: yea
Me: so hows ur life?
Kyle: just got interesting
Me: whys that?
Kyle: dont worry about it
Me: uhm ok
Kyle: trust me
Me: sure lol
Kyle: yea
Kyle: so i hear u and tom are becomin good friends
Me: friends that it why?
Kyle: nuttin he was just sayin he has been talkin to u
Me: yeah hes a cool kid
Kyle: i kno
Me: so u guys having fun?
Kyle: i guess
Me: u guess?
Kyle: yea
Me: oh yeah that sounds like fun lol
Kyle: yea wat u doin
Me: just thinkin n talkin to a few ppl
Me: also lookin at some new pix i took...
Kyle: wat u thinkin about
Me: alot of shit
Kyle: like
Me: just stuff thats been on my mind for a while... nothing i can change yano..
Kyle: yea i kno
Kyle: but let me guess so of its about me
Me: would it matter to u if it was?
Kyle: idk maybe
Me: whys that?
Kyle: idk
Me: oh ok
Kyle: yea
Me: well idk nvm
Kyle: ok
Kyle: guess wat
Me: what
Kyle: im talkin to mike c
Me: oh
Me: hes one of my good friends lol he used to like me alot lol
Kyle: yea
Me: uhm yeah
Me: what u guys talkin about?
Kyle: things
Me: oh
Kyle: yea
Me: hmm
Kyle: its all good
Me: oh?
Me: idk... ima steal ur room at ur moms house ur beds comfy! lol jk
Kyle: yea i kno myt beds comfy and its all mine
Me: yeah not for long imma come steal it haha
Kyle: bring it on
Me: ok!
Me: will do
Kyle: when are we goin to battle for my bed
Me: when we next hang out!
Me: i'll woop ur ass!
Kyle: doubt it
Me: oh really?
Kyle: ur about as mean as a box full of teddy bears
Me: haha so u think
Kyle: so i kno
Me: oh really now?
Me: since when?
Kyle: since tom said so
Me: oh really haha well we'll see about that
Me: i have two older brothers i know how to fight i could woop any bitches ass.. n kyle pft plz ur probly weaker than me!
Kyle: are u serious
Me: mhm
Me: i am dead serious
Kyle: ok i believe
Me: no u dont
Kyle: i kno
Me: haha ur so mean
Me: =]
Kyle: so u still like me
Me: yeah so what haha
Kyle: im just sayin
Me: haha
Kyle: hey si are u goin to go out wit tom
Me: toms cool in all but i only like him as a friend theres only one kid i really like right now but ahem yano that story
Kyle: yea i kno
Me: yuppers
Kyle: i wonder who u like
Me: hmm me too
Me: haha
Kyle: i bet u kno though
Me: i bet u do too
Kyle: i do
Me: haha
Me: i know tom knows
Kyle: tom knows
Kyle: tom said wat do i kno
Me: who i like
Me: haha
Kyle: oh
Me: yeah haha
Kyle: tom says he is a good man
Me: who the guy i like?
Kyle: yea
Me: hmm yeah id say so too...
Kyle: really
Me: no id say it just for show haha yeah he is duh!
Me: haha
Kyle: just for show??? really u think so
Me: no i really think the guy i like is well idk if i should get into that
Kyle: y
Me: well the guy i like last time i knew he had a gf who treated him like crap
Kyle: oh
Me: yup n i think he deserves way better than that because hes a really great guy.. but idk what he thinks about that... cuz last i knew he was confusd which im not sure exactly what hes confusd about
Kyle: he has his reasons
Me: yup i guess so =/
Kyle: yea everyone has to have a reason for everything
Me: well yeah i guess like the saying goes everything happens for a reason.. but i just hate seeing a really sweet n really nice guy being treated like shit.. they dont deserve it no matter anything
Kyle: true but maybe he has to learn things on his own and not listen to others
Me: how many times does he have to be put through being hurt n treated like shit before hes gunna finally find out he could have better with someone whos infront of him n when will he know when its
too late n the other girl couldnt take watching him get hurt anymore?
Kyle: when he finally realizes he could do better he will realize wat he lost and he will kno he did wrong
Me: why relize when its to late why not try to relize it now...
Kyle: dk
Me: well look at it this way... why go back to someone who treats you like shit.. when you have someone infront of you who really likes you n would never hurt you.. why not give her a try... why go back to where everything sucks?
Kyle: cuz goin back is the only thing that makes him happy
Me: so the girl whos infront of him didnt? not even looking in her eyes? he didnt see nothing with her?
Me: so going back to where hes treated like shit is happiness?
Kyle: the thing about goin back is that he had only known that for a long time and he feels safe and content there lookin into her eyes showed that there was more but it scared him
Me: so not taken a chance with something that could be the greatest thing he ever did.. just leaving someoen who would never think about hurtin him because when she looked into his eyes she saw alot she knew her feelings were true and as much as they scared her she liked how she felt so she was pursuin something but to only get to where he leaves her to go bak n be treated liek crap... instead of being with her where she would never hurt him n where she sees him going bak to that it hurts her because she likes him alot n doesnt want him to get hurt but knowin he will ... it makes her sick to her stomach because she has all theses feelings for him but hates the fact hes with someone who treats him like sht and she cant do anything because she doesnt know what to do or how he even feels for her at all
Me: because hes with someoen else
Kyle: i dont even kno wat to say about that at all
Kyle: i am dumb founded
Me: kyle im tellin you the truth.. i wouldnt lie to you and i dont want to see you hurt.. i like you alot.. i havent felt this way towards a guy in a long time.. i hate seeing you with her because i hate knowing she treats you like shit n you dont deserve that... and i honestly dont know what to do... idk how u feel towards me or anything and it sux...
Kyle: she doesnt treat me like shit anymore
xLoveMehAlwaiyzX: so its ok to just go back to something n just forget about whats infront of you because your scared?
Kyle: idk wat to say
Me: why?
Me: say whats on ur mind kyle
Kyle: everything about wat ur sayin
Me: what bout it
Kyle: its just so much
Me: y
Kyle: its just so much
Me: kyle i need to know what is idk what to do idk wat to say.. you know my feelings towards you... but yano i feel like ur scared of change of something better.. but then again im probly wrong
Kyle: idk
Me: kyle what do you know
Kyle: i kno alot of things but i dont kno about thi right now
Me: well idk what to say anymore... i really like you alot.. i hate that your with her nuff said there... i think u deserve so much better... even if its not with me... i know you know things when you know it... but if your so confusd why are you back with her?
Kyle: idk
Me: kyle you must know i mean you are back with her
Kyle: i kno but i guess i never lost feelings
Me: ok understandable.. but look at this.. you also used to say she treated you like crap.. tons of ppl have told me that she treated you like crap... remember when me n u first started really talkin before we chilld n all that happend.. i askd you about if u could see yourself with her for like every.. u told me no..
Me: could you answer that question for me again.. could you really see yourself with her forever? or do u see yourself datin other ppl?
Kyle: idk
Me: ok well do you have any feelings for me at all? jw
Kyle: yea
Me: alright well could you answer me something else.. when you look into my eyes what do you see?
Kyle: ur eyes
Me: well no shit lol.. but no u used to say something else..
Kyle: i did
Me: yeah n that was a reason why you couldnt look me in the eyes
Kyle: u had those eyes that were piercing
Me: yeah lol
Kyle: yea
Me: u also told me u would forget what u were sayin when u lookd into them i found that a lie but idk was it really true?
Kyle: umm
Me: i take it as a lie?
Kyle: no
Me: well do u do that when u look into ur gfs eyes?
Kyle: depends
Me: hows that depends?
Kyle: mood
Me: haha wow
Kyle: wat
Me: question... what is it about me that you like anyways?
Kyle: im not sure
Me: but you know what you like about ur gf?
Kyle: im not sure
Me: would she have done what i did the other day?!
Me: or better question.. has anyone ever done that?
Kyle: she has
Me: all the way to ashburnham?
Kyle: yea
Me: how many times?
Kyle: a couple
Me: better question.. how many times has she hurt you.. n how many times have i?
Kyle: thats not cool
Me: its the truth kyle
Me: how many more times you think shes gunna hurt you.. and how many times do you think i wanna hurt u cuz i can tell you straight up i would never even think about hurting you, you dont deserve to be hurt
Kyle: idk
Me: are you scared of new things?
Kyle: nope
Me: then why not try something new
Kyle: idk
Kyle: idk
Me: ok could u prove to me if this is wrong? what im about to say?
Kyle: tom says alot of bullshit that i dont want to hear
Me: whats he saying?
Kyle: wat he just said
Me: whats teh bullshit?
Kyle: bc kyle like his gf alot he soo mutch feelings for her and you r trying to break him and her up and thats whats bullshit
Me: uhm well if i can recall tom told me the other fuckin night ur gf doesnt deserve you n i do n i think i might have that convo saved too
Kyle: that was b 4 i knew wat was going on
Me: w/e yano what kyle here have a great life with your gf.. i hope she doesnt hurt you this time.. but know i still really like you and i would never even dream of hurting you im out pce
Kyle: b 4 him and her use to get in fights all the time but that has changed now
Kyle: that from me tom
Me: ppl dont change over night
Kyle: what do u mean
Me: ppl do not change
Me: look at how many times shes hurt u kyle
Me: n u think shes gunna stop now
Kyle: yea she has
Me: for how long?
Kyle: a whiel i hope
Me: until she knows i dont like u kno more or something n u wont leave her for me again?
Me: a while
Me: you can live with just a while?
Me: instead of being with someone who wont hurt u at all?
Kyle: but she dont kno about you
Me: yano my feelings i know wont change... expecially not in a day ... everyone keeps tellin me yano go after him he'll relize.. but yano i cant do that... liken someoen this much n watching them go
bak out with someone whos cheated on them n really hurt them in the past sucks... n yano i rather be friends with you than nothing at all no matter how much i like you n it kills to see u with her... but imma do it.. why because im not a bitch n im not gunna up n leave n say see u later... because your one of th sweetest guys i know.. n yano idk if you'll ever relize you can have something way better with me... i honestly dont know anything right now but my feelings towards you.. n it really sucks... but i gotta live with this n to u righ tnow u probly think im insane or crazie but w/e these are my feelings n i cant change them
Kyle: i completely understand but i dont kno wat to tell u at this point maybe we just need to hangout more or something and just talk
Kyle: well im going to bed cause im tired as balls
Me: ok
Kyle: so talk to u later
Me: yup later
Kyle: tom says hes srry for what he said
Me: its fine its the truth isnt it?
Kyle: yup
Me: bye
Kyle: k bye
