Ok so as you all know I was suppose to see my X this weekend. Yesterday he called to cancel our get together for that night. I asked him if everything was ok and he said he wasnt feeling well. I told him no prolbem and he asked if the kids could play together on Monday and of course I said yes. I dont know maybe its just me but, I think he is trying to avoid be alone with me.
Maybe its better this way. We talked on the phone for a little while tonight and I wanted so bad to tell him about New Years. I hate the word no. I didnt ask. I wish it could be him I get to kiss at midnight. I need to stop thinking about him. This is not healthy for me.
