Have you ever spent all night talking to someone that you thought you knew. But, the more you talk the more you realize...they are just like you? That happened to me the other night. Me and and a buddy of mine got drunk. And then drank more.
We were at the bar laughing and sharing stories. They weren't stories of joy though, they were more about things that we've been through. Behaviors we've had. For instance, the night I got so drunk, i checked myself into mid-mo! Sick, yes, but FUCKING HYSTERICAL though. Especially since they wouldn't let me out. Anyway, just weird backwards stuff like that, but to us, it was funny.
But, then i started to feel sad. And I still do. This person has no idea special they are. They feel alone and discarded. I want to make it better, because this person means a ton to me! I get those feelings a lot too. And those low feelings are hard to shake. I just hope this person knows that I am not going anywhere, and anything they need, they can come to me.
I just feel a little more normal to meet someone like me, and to find that treasure in someone i'm already close to, is just awesome. I'm not crazy, or fucked up mentally, it's just that sometimes things I've dealt with in the past have taken over me.
That's all. That's actually the least eventful...event that has happened in the last few days. But, for some reason, that is the most important event to me. Just finding a connection in someone I already care so much about.
I hope that my friends know that I am not going anywhere. When I attatch myself to someone, i want to protect them. Their happiness is my happiness. That's probably a lot of pressure to put on people, but seeing people down just affects me. From last night, to Shay being down today, and knowing some of my bests are going through hard times. i just want everyone to pull out just fine. i love my friends, and they are my familiy. If you didn't know, now you've heard.
