I HAVEN'T SAT DOWN IN A LONG TIME AND WROTE , MY FEELINGS AND THOUGHTS IN 2 YRS . AND TO START WHERE I , LEFT OFF IS NOT SO EASY . SINCE 2 YRS HAVE PASSED ALOT HAS HAPPEN , SOME " GOOD " SOME NOT . THE PAST IS THE " HARDEST " MY MARRIAGE A JOKE , AND TRYING TO MAKE IT WORK AND NOTHING IN RETURN " BUT ABUSE " MENTAL , PHYSICAL , VERBAL AND THE " BOYS " BEING DONE TO THEM TOO. " SO " IT GETS "BETTER " WHEN ? IF YOU MET SOMEONE TOTALLY DIFFERENT ? BUT, CAN YOU " TRUST " SOME DON'T EVEN KNOW THE MEANING , I'AM SO " WITH A WALL " AROUND " ME " BECAUSE , I DON'T " WANT THAT HURT AGAIN " . AND THE WALL IS SO UP THERE THAT ITS REALLY HARD TO LET IT DOWN . AND ALL THE " FUCKED UP " PEOPLE AND MARRIAGES ARE NOT LASTING . EVERYoNE " LOST " THE REAL MEANING OF THEIR " VOWS ' I BELIEVE WHAT " GOES AROUND " COMES AROUND " JUST A MATTER OF TIME . ( FOR SURE ) . I WOULD LOVE TO BE ON A ISLAND AND WHITE SAND , DEEP BLUE CLEAR WATER AND JUST FORGET . BUT, OF COURSE THAT WOULD BE " REALLY TO EASY ". SO , LIFE GOES ON . " AND SO DOES REALITY ". EVERYONE NEEDS TO LOOK IN THE MIRROR AND MAKE A CHOICE ON WHAT IS REALLY WRONG AND WHAT TO DO TO STRAIGHTEN IT OUT . IF I HAD TO DO IT ALL OVER AGAIN I WOULD OF LISTEN TO MY DAD , " NO HE SHOULD OF LISTEN TO ME " BUT, MY DAD COULDN'T DEAL WITH ME BECAUSE , HERE'S THE " MESSED UP " REASON ! " I LOOK AND ACT LIKE MY MOM , REBELLIOUS , AND STOOD MY GROUND AND SOUNDED LIKE " MY MOM " WELL, DEAR DAD " I'M LIKE MY FATHER 'S DAUGHTER AND VERY MUCH LIKE MY MOTHER AND THAT IS ONE THING THAT " NO ONE WILL EVER TAKE AWAY !! WHEN GOD MADE ME THE MOLD WAS BRoKE , NO TWO ALIKE . AND IT GETS BETTER WHEN ??
I WROTE THIS 2 YRS HAD GONE BY WITH WRITING AND THIS WAS THE FIRST IN 2 YRS BACK IN 2002
WROTE BY CHERIE 8/02
