Ive tried everything I know to do, Ive prayed, Ive asked for help, Ive sold everything I can, and still, I have issues that I can not overcome.
When did I lose control over my own life? When did things get so out of hand that I am powerless to navigate my own destiny?
When I was younger, I had serious issues with depression and suicidal urges. Through therapy, I have learned how to constructively deal with urges like that, and lately, its like everything Ive learned has gone straight out of my brain!
Its torture to get out of bed anymore. I wake up and look around and literally say to myself, or maybe the cats, who knows, "Man, did I wake up AGAIN?"
Anyway I just needed to put these thoughts down somewhere, get them out of my head, or at least share them or something. No comments are needed.
And if suddenly Im not online anymore, its not because Ive done something to myself. I have an eviction notice and a disconnect on my electric, so if Im not online anymore, one of those two things happened.
Love to all my friends!
